Former Porn Star Jessie Jewels Story

My name is Amber, also known as Jessie Jewels, and I made 6 xxx movies in 2005. During that time I was subjected to as much hard alcohol as I wanted, usually more than I asked for, I’ve been drugged with ruffian, I was supplied with and snorted unlimited cocaine (for the first time ever by the way), and was supplied with unlimited amounts of prescription pain killers, relaxers, antidepressant pills.

Brandon Iron was extremely aggressive when it came to trying to change what was not apart of the original contract. I was only suppose to do a solo scene however when I got there he was very pushy. Keep in mind I just turned 19 years old, I arrive alone when there should of been some other girls there so he said wrapping up other scenes, doing makeup, etc. along with an entire camera crew. Well, it was just us. Of course, many girls in general but especially in porn, we should know better then to trust a pornographic director however, in our defense nobody, not anyone has the right to violate your rights, mislead you, misguide you and under verbal contract intentionally lie to you. Please do keep in my age especially, I was 19 years old. Do you really think he thought I would know any different? I doubt that. So try to understand I was naive and had no idea the manipulation this man had planned on.

First thing, gives a cocktail beverage on the scene. I took it. I was nervous as hell and knew by looking at him that I was going to need it just to get through my solo scene. He had me sign a consent without explaining it the way it should of been. He completely made it seem like no big deal and oh its just legal jumbo that says you need to be 18. Pressure pressure pressure. I said I’m doing a solo scene for this much and that’s it. He said sure. Just sign the bottom.

I knew very little, if that, nothing, about what I was signing. Well if I knew just by looking that I was signing a legal document with Satan maybe I would of stopped, but he deceived me. Brandon Iron lied to me to make sure his evil and selfish needs were met. He took advantage of young girl who knew nothing. If I could afford a lawyer I would of sued him for all his worth. This man pressured me repeatedly. I said no after no after no after no. He continued to pour me alcohol beverages one after the next. His intentions were morally wrong. He deserves to be in prison, but because of who he is in the industry, because I was just another "broken-home porn whore" to him, he didn't stop when he should of never started. Giving alcohol to a minor is illegal period. Slipping illegal drugs into a minor drink and forcing her to have any type of sexual foul play is 100% against the law in the State of California.

This 40 something year old man made me and told me that I had to submit to his sexual movie rules. I said no. I was unwilling. I know my rights. However from what I remember right before everything went blank was his tone of voice and threatening my life, verbally assaulting me, and having my mouth covered by his hand in an extremely forceful manner. I blacked out after that. Woke up in my car with the cash amount originally promised.

I have a very blurry and distorted vision of that day. However soon enough after my visions were coming back, a movie which I never agreed to partake in came out. I can’t even tell you how violated and wronged inside I’ve been. To watch yourself in a PORN MOVIE for the whole world to see, when you were terribly violated and don’t remember at all what your doing and you just know by watching this was not you. It was someone else. You know it isn’t you. That is unjust and so unfair. He deserves to be punished for breaking so many laws and for his internal immorality.

All I knew was what the agency (MetroTalentManagement.com) and I agreed on which was one solo foot fetish scene and it turned into more than that I found out later when the movies came out. I was sexually violated while being drugged by the director/producer Brandon Iron.

I am a strong person. I do not know why or how I ended up getting into porn. Maybe a lack of self worth at that time, financially incapable of supporting myself and been given this glossy option by a deceiving agency during a time I was lost, weak and hopeless. Regardless of the reason, pornography is destroying so many lives in the US Country. We are raising a nation to be ok with abuse and violence. I knew nothing about porn before I did it. And unlike the average porn star I quit. I left and I took what was left of me. So many, too many and almost all of them who get started become a slave to porn industry with no hope or any other skills to get out. Most of them pick up drug and alcohol addiction, pick up diseases such as AIDS and HIV. The pain occurred is very hard to repair. Most of them stay because recovery is too hard.

These porn companies deceive young girls. They lie. They catch them when they are weak and no nothing about life. I look back on this painful past and see a bunch of deceivers. Liars. Old men condoning to young girls, teenagers, I was a teenager girl, to alcohol, pain killers, cocaine, crystal meth, heroin, any type of prescription drug is sold to these girls for whatever they want. Just go to a doctors office in the "Valley". It’s disturbing. An unheard epidemic of pain and suffering these girls are trapped in.

PORN IS DESTROYING OUR NATION.

The day I found the Pink Cross, I found hope.  I thank the Pink Cross every chance I get because they take so much pride in what they do. They are so consistent in staying in touch. They remind me how much they care and how proud of me they are.  Nobody does that for girls who were in porn. Nobody cares that you stopped, they only think negative that you did it in the first place.  The Pink Cross does care. They live to save girls out of porn. It’s so awesome. 

Am not even over exaggerating when I say the Pink Cross is completely righteous in what they do.  They served their purpose in my life by far.  If it weren't the Pink Cross I honestly don’t know if I would have had the self-esteem and courage to stay away from the sick industry of porn. I hated what porn did to me. But with the acceptance, the love and understanding I received from the Pink Cross I have to tell you I found the strength and courage within myself to never go back to that hell again.

These days I enjoy my life a lot more.  I have recovered completely from porn and it’s awesome.  I am so much more than porn.  The Pink Cross has been there every step of the way.  I stand strong in what the Pink Cross is fighting for. Shelley Lubben and The Pink Cross are everything to me!!! I love you guys!!!

Amber

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