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Ex Porn Star talks with Laura Ingraham About the Truth Behind Pornography
by Shelley Lubben

Laura said we needed to confront porn and we did it! Just listen here!

Finally a powerful conservative has the guts to take on the lies of the illegally operating and sexually diseased porn industry and how the smut it churns out is devastating our families and youth.

Pornography has many victims, from the modern day slaves who work in the porn industry to the youth who can easily access pornography using their cell phones or computers while doing homework. In fact, statistics say the largest group for viewing pornograpy online is ages 12-17. What a tragedy!

And now the porn industry openly preys on unsuspecting college students all in the name of education of course.

Recently a porn movie made its way to several college campuses in efforts to help the porn industry resurrect itself. Yes, with all the free porn available on the internet and major pressure on the porn industry by organizations such as Pink Cross Foundation, AIDS Healthcare Foundation, Cal/Osha and Los Angeles Department of Public Health, the slow but sure death for porn is in progress and it's forcing the porn industry to seek creative ways to survive its imminent death.

Especially since they just spent an estimated $10 million dollars on the movie in question: "Pirates II: Stagnetti's Revenge" starring several big porn names such as Belladonna, who by the way has Herpes a non-curable disease and yet continues to do hardcore scenes. Then we have Ben English, also known as Derek Hay, owner of LADirect Models who has been rumored to be under FBI investigation for prostitution as well as other illegal activities. Next we have Jesse Jane and Riley Steele who are shown as being wasted in a youtube video which you can see here. These are some of the "actors" in the movie that students will be viewing for "educational" purposes.

Why not discuss the backgrounds of these actors as well for "educational" purposes? Or perhaps a behind scenes discussion about the illegal exchange of bodily fluids filmed during the movie? Or better yet, the unsafe and hazardous work conditions that porn performers are forced to work in?

According to Cal/Osha, the California Occupational Safety Health Act, adult film industry employers are required to provide a safe and healthful workplace for employees, and pay the costs of their health and safety program.

These requirements include:

*Following a written safety and health program, known as an injury and illness prevention program, or IIPP. In simple terms, an IIPP identifies potential hazards specific to the workplace and ways to protect workers from those hazards.

*Training employees in health and safety hazards

*Protecting employees from electrical hazards, such as those associated with special lighting

*Protecting employees from hazards associated with bloodborne pathogens

*Providing sanitation facilities

*Not discriminating against employees who complain about safety and health conditions.

It also states very plainly:

"The kind of contact prohibited by the standard is contact between skin or mucous membranes and blood or OPIM (other potentially infectious material)."

You can't exchange bodily fluids while making a porn movie. That's the law. But of course the porn industry doesn't follow laws.

In fact, one industry leader and so-called doctor to the porn stars stated smugly in a New York Times article, "Honey, this is pornography. People don't pay attention to the Legislature."

Maybe the college campuses would be interested in learning that the porn industry doesn't pay attention to laws like the rest of us do.

Learn more about the California health requirements regarding the adult film industry at http://www.dir.ca.gov/DOSH/AdultFilmIndustry.html

Take it from an ex porn star, NONE of these requirements above are being fulfilled by the porn industry. The only fulfillment going on is is film crew members getting "off" during abusive and degrading sex scenes filmed in private homes.

Yes, the porn industry is modern day slavery. How can this be, you ask? For one, young naive girls are lured in through the internet by fraudulent pornographers and coerced to sign contracts they can't even read or understand. Once the signature is there, they are forced into hardcore sex acts they never agreed to and threatened if they don't do them. Just ask former porn actress Michelle Avanti who was forced to do a porn scene with 75 men who ejaculated on her. The men weren't even professional male performers! Men off the street were solicited through a LA Weekly by JM Productions and Michelle says she wasn't shown any STD tests from these "civilians". By the way, she was drunk in that video and pornographers knew it. Hell, they gave her the vodka and beer!

To learn more about the hardcore truth behind pornography, read stories by former porn actresses here.

You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free and with courageous conservatives like Laura and ex porn stars who have been there and done that like Shelley, porn won't be around much longer in America. It's just a matter of time and a good dose of truth.

And with the help of God whose morals this nation was built on, truly I believe America will turn away from porn and turn back to God who loves them and has a greater destiny for their lives than porn.

Thank you Laura Ingraham for being bold and confronting pornography. I thank you and your country thanks you!

I was a stripper, model and porn star from 1995-2006. I am formerly known as Alexa Milano.

I was naïve when I first started stripping. A friend of mine suggested I try out on “audition” night at a local strip club and of course my heart was saying, “No, I can’t do this!” But I saw girls dancing and men literally throwing money at them on the stage!!! But I still couldn’t do it.

I kept thinking about the INSTANT CASH and that I’d be able to pay my bills, buy food, whatever! So, I showed up and there I was standing on the stage, almost naked in front of probably 200 guys hooting and hollering and THROWING MONEY at me!!!

I was scared to death but had seen all the money! I finished my song...a few others took their turn and next thing I know they announced the winner and it was.....ME!!! The attention from men and the money were too good to pass up. But time would prove me wrong and I began to feel dirty and used by men.

I already had a past history of abuse by men, including my alcoholic father who beat my mother daily and then shot himself in the head in front of me when I was nine years old. My mother never allowed us to speak of it. So I never received healing or understood what love meant. I only knew the abuse I saw growing up. Stripping offered me the attention and love I desperately craved and because I was naïve I swallowed the lie.

One night while I was working, I was approached by a well known porn star who feature danced at the club I was stripping at. She told me how great the money in porn was and that I would be safe in the porn industry. She made it sound so glamorous. Next thing you know I’m off to Los Angeles to become a porn star.

I did a few porn movies but it was so traumatizing that I eventually went back to stripping. I couldn’t handle the pain and trauma of making porn. The sex acts were extremely painful and degrading.

My first movie I was treated very rough by 3 guys. They pounded on me, gagged me with their penises, and tossed me around like I was a ball! I was sore, hurting and could barely walk. My insides burned and hurt so badly. I could barely pee and to try to have a bowel movement was out of the question. I was hurting so bad from the physical abuse from these 3 male porn stars! I swore I’d never do porn again but here I was being flown back to Los Angeles again only this time for a very well known porn company.

I ended up doing a few scenes for this new kind of DVD that was new to the industry where, when we did scenes, the porn star guys face would never be shown....only the girls. These DVD's were the kind where when a fan would buy it, they could pick and choose what kind of scene they wanted to view such as blow jobs, Mish, anal, girl/girl, etc. It was a horrible experience and I just wanted out of there!

There was always alcohol and drugs readily available on the sets. Whatever you wanted, they would or could get it. In fact, the set I worked on for two videos, the stars had their own "doctor" with them! I would see the doctor giving out pills or giving B12 injections (or so they told me it was B12!) I never got involved with any major drugs, I only smoked marijuana and drank Vodka.

As I began to hate porn more and more I remember one porn set where a director really frightened me when she pulled down her pants to show off her Herpes. That did it for me.

I returned to stripping and suddenly my life came crashing down around me when I was involved in a serious car accident with my alcoholic/drug addict boyfriend in 2006. It was the wakeup call I needed and it changed my life forever.

The next thing I knew was I woke up in the hospital with a ruptured bladder, lacerated spleen, kidney & liver, broken ribs, dislocated shoulder, soft tissue damage in my left shoulder and a laceration of my upper right arm. I had a shattered femur and now have a titanium rod.

Since 2006, I have been in recovery from the accident and unable to work. I have carpal tunnel in both hands from using a walker for a few months and I had to have surgeries on both elbows. I also have arthritis in my hip and elbows where the screws are.

Somehow I managed to survive that accident, but I was in the trauma unit for 2 weeks. I did physical therapy, but never received therapy for my mental or emotional feelings. I tried a psychologist and he made me feel worse by giving me psych meds. I hated him and the meds, plus I didn’t have insurance and could not afford his fees.

I received a small settlement from the accident for which I lived on for the past 3 years. It is gone. I am with nothing and cannot work due to my filing of an SSI claim. I can’t get regular disability because I didn’t pay into social security enough money to cover me, so I had to file for SSI.

Right now I owe 4 months back rent as well as ALL my other bills. I'm very depressed and feeling worthless at this very minute. It’s hard for me to even type.

All this for walking into an industry I thought was glamorous. The drugs, the alcohol, the drunk I met in the strip club who I trusted to drive me home that night. No, the sex industry is not glamorous. Hanging out with drug addicted alcoholic sexually diseased people who abuse and hate is not glamorous.

I have a hard time making and keeping friends. Everyone thinks of me as a stripper/porn star. I am virtually a recluse in my home. When I go out, I do not look at people, and I prefer to keep to myself. I just feel very dirty and used from my past in the exotic entertainment business.

I try to get close to God because when I was younger my mother took me to church and instilled good Christian values in me. I have ALWAYS been a Christian and known that God must have been watching over me. I should be dead by now but I have to believe I’m here for a reason.
I really want to go back to the Baptist church where I was baptized but I am afraid they will judge me for my past.

That’s when I was flipping through the channels one day and saw the "MTV True Life" episode with Shelley and Pink Cross Foundation on there and was so excited that there is a group that we, as ex porn stars can go to and find hope and prayer! Amen!!! The Pink Cross site is totally awesome and I am so darn proud of Shelley for making such a wonderful place for us to go to for encouragement and prayers. The site is big and I actually haven't been able to check it all out, but I will!! From what I've seen and read, it is absolutely remarkable!!! I signed up for the newsletter and I also am going to get help in the forums.

I am so grateful for the help Pink Cross offers and already I feel there really is hope for me and as Shelley keeps telling me, “God has a special purpose for me.” I really want to believe that. I hope my story is part of that special purpose and helps many who are thinking of getting into the sex industry or who are addicted to pornography. I want them to know the truth so they don’t have to suffer like many of us have.

Porn is not glamorous. It hurts people. It almost killed me. But praise be to Jesus Christ I am still here to tell my story.

Thank you to all of you who support Pink Cross and help women like me. I sincerely thank you for giving me hope again!
Blessings through God!

Melissa
AKA Alexa Milano/former porn star

Please help Melissa rebuild her life and donate generously at www.thepinkcross.org, a 501(c)(3)non-profit organization dedicated to helping women and men recover from the porn industry. We want to help Melissa with her immediate needs and help her find a job she can perform with her physical limitations.Thank you for caring!

 Please support Pink Cross Foundation at AdultCon April 9-11, 2010, where we will be passionately reaching out to porn stars with love and gifts and praying for them as well as helping porn addicts learn the truth behind the fantasy of porn. It cost approximately $3,000 so please give today so we can pay for our booth and airline tickets and hotel. This particular convention gives us much freedom to reach out and is right in the heart of the porn capitol so it's an important one! Thank you for caring!

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Madelyne, formerly known as porn star Michelle Avanti,, came to Pink Cross for help in January, 2009, when she cried out to God because she couldn't live the porn lifestyle anymore. God heard her cry and she is now living a new life thanks to many of you who donated! She also gave birth to a beautiful baby girl in August, 2009, so please send in baby clothes in good condition for size 1 year and above. Madelyne also wants to attend beauty school and move closer to Shelley in Bakersfield where team members can help care for her and the baby. Please help Madelyne receive a second chance at life and give toward her schooling, baby expenses and living expenses! You may read Madelyn's story here.  

Nyesha, formerly known as porn star Mahlia Milian, came to Pink Cross for help in August. 2009, when she was living in a hotel room pregnant and trying to escape porn. Well, she DID escape porn and is living a new life now thanks to many of you who donated! She gave birth to a beautiful baby girl so please send in baby clothes in good condition for her size 1 year and above. Nyesha also needs help with rent and living expenses so please continue to donate so we can help her! You may read Nyesha's story here.  

Amber, formerly known as Jessie Jewels, contacted Pink Cross in Novermber, 2009, for support and is living a brand new life in Jesus Christ!  We are SO proud of her. You can read Amber's story here. 

Ryan, formerly known as Trent Roe, contacted Shelley in November, 2007, for support and is living a brand new life in Jesus Christ!   Ryan writes in his testimony, "Last Christmas I got a call from Shelley asking me for my address. She wanted to help me because I was having a difficult time and I was low on money for food. About 3 days later I got a package in the mail from a foundation named The Pink Cross Foundation. I opened it up wondering what the Pink Cross was and who this was from. It was from Shelley and her husband Garret and the people at Pink Cross. I got a BIBLE and some other books as well as a DVD named Traffic Control. There was also a gift card for the grocery store and Home Depot. I was floored!"

Ryan has been a HUGE help to Pink Cross by helping at porn conventions and spreading the truth about pornography. We are so proud of him for never giving up on his recovery and for his passion to fight porn and follow Christ. You can read Ryan's amazing story here. 

Diana, formerly known as Desi Foxx and her daughter, left porn in July 2009 and we were able to help them with rent, utilities, resources, carepackages and more.  Diana loves the books we have sent her to help her walk closer to God in her recovery. Diana is also a powerful advocate against the abuse in the porn industry so we applaud her for standing up for truth! We are SO proud of her and her precious daughter. You can read Diana's story here.  

Patrice formerly known as porn star Nadia Styles
http://www.myspace.com/enternadia - Patrice contacted Pink Cross for help and left porn in December, 2008. We were able to reach out to her with mentorship, carepackages, resources, a place to live and she even got baptized! Patrice also joined Shelley and other former porn actresses to testify against the abuse in the porn industry. We applaud her for her courage! Please watch her inspirational testimony here.  

Julie formerly known as porn star Sierra Sinn
http://www.myspace.com/xxxsierrasinnxxx - Julie left the porn industry in June in 2007 and we were able to help her with rent, food, resources and more. Julie worked really hard on her recovery and is now doing great and now has a rewarding job and brand new life. Julie was reuinted with her family and is now raising her precious daughter. Thank you to all of you who donated to her recovery. You made a huge difference in her life! Please see a video of Julie's recovery here.

Amanda formerly known as Erin Moore, left porn in 2008 after realizing porn was destroying her life. She is a single Mommy of a percious baby boy who we were able to send baby clothes for, help her with rent, resources, carepackages, and more. We are very proud of how hard she has worked! Please read Erin's amazing story here.

Jan formerly known as Elizabeth Rollings
www.myspace.com/justjannie1979 - Jan left porn in October, 2007, and has been recovering strong ever since! Jan has three children and has sacrificed much to help Pink Cross Foundation by joining us at porn conventions to reach out to porn stars and porn fans. Jan also joins Shelley in court to testify against the abuse in the porn industry. Jan was recently ordained in January, 2010, as a Chaplain to the porn industry. Thank you to all who donate and support Jan through her recovery! You may read Jan's story here.

Tammie formerly known as Tamra Toryn
www.myspace.com/miss_tammie_b - Tammie left porn in February, 2008, and has been recovering strong ever since! Tammie has been a huge help to help Pink Cross Foundation by helping women recover in the Pink Cross forums as well as joining us at porn conventions to reach out to porn stars and porn fans. Tammie really wants to go to cosmetology school and needs our financial support to help send her to school along with helping her with living expenses. Thank you to all who donated to Tammie's recovery and offering her prayers and support. She still needs your prayers and support because recovery is hard and takes time. But Tammie is a fighter and won't ever give up!  You may read Tammie's story here.

April, formerly known as Ashley Brooks, http://www.myspace.com/nebula3g- April is a former porn actress who contacted Shelley in 2007 for support and is now a lead team member on Pink Cross Foundation and is recovering strong! April was recently ordained in 2010 as a Chaplain to the porn industry. Read April's amazing story here.

Jenni, formerly known as Veronica Lain
http://www.myspace.com/misszorita - Jenni is a former porn actress and prostitute who was in the sex industry for 13 years when she contacted Shelley but by the grace of God left in September, 2007, and is now a team member on Pink Cross Foundation and is recovering strong! Read Jenni's amazing story here.

Terri formerly known as Lyla Lei
Lyla Lei left the porn industry in October, 2007. We were able to help her with living expenses and a carepackage. We are very proud of her!

Kristenye Riddick formerly known as Diamond
http://www.myspace.com/sweetlikesugah13 - Kristenye has worked VERY hard on her recovery and recently found out she has major physical illnesses. PLEASE pray for Kristenye. Read Kristenye's story here.

Karly, formerly known as Becca Brat, is a former porn actress who now has two year old baby daughter. Karly was the first women to come to Shelley for support and help. Please read Karly's story here. Update: Karly has a great job an is recovering strong thanks to you who donated. She also attended web design school! Thank you for caring about Karly. She sincerely appreciates your love and support!

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Contributions to the Pink Cross Foundation, a tax-exempt organization under Section 501(c)(3) of the Internal Revenue Code, are entirely tax-deductible.) 

Pink Cross Foundation passionately reached out to thousands of porn stars and porn fans offering love, hugs, free gifts and Bibles, the truth about pornography as well as prayer and ministry right in the middle of a porn convention!

God really showed up and did AWESOME things among us at this convention and we want to wholeheartedly thank those of you who supported us!

SOME of SHELLEY'S FAVORITE HIGHLIGHTS:
1) Team members April, Jan and Heather were ordained by Shelley right outside the convention before we went in. Shelley ordained these faithful servants as Chaplains so there would be FOUR ordained Chaplains ready to serve and offer ministry and prayer.

2) Being sent by God to go to the top of the Stratosphere Tower which is the tallest free standing observation tower in the United States to prophesy and pray over the nation and the porn industry was wild! God made me read from Zechariah 13 and 14 and to declare the coming of Jesus as well as pray for those who are trapped by the lie of porn and for our nation to return to the God of Jesus Christ so our great people can be healed. It was a really heavy moment for me and I could barely stand under the power of God.

2) Another great move of God was when we handed out pink bags full of goodies, makeup, Bibles, STD info, DVDs, CDs and more to Porn stars and some came by our booth to receive prayer. One precious woman literally fell into my lap in tears and I was able to meet with her privately to talk about getting her out of the industry. Please keep her in your prayers!

3) Heather, Scott and I stood outside the AVN Awards Show and prayed for porn stars as they walked down the red carpet. It was a miracle we got in front as there were thousands of screaming fans.

We also gathered as a team and prayed powerfully against wickedness in the porn industry while praying God would intervene and rescue those trapped in porn. We walked around to every corner of the convention and prayed holding up the Word of God. Shelley read the Word of God out loud for four days straight while other team members prayed and prophesied. Fans and porn stars were shocked, touched and not sure what to really think of us. But they definitely knew God was visiting them and we aimed our prayers at many porn stars believing they will be out of porn this year so EXPECT HUGE miracles to happen in the porn industry this year! Already SIX women have come to us for help!

To see some of our amazing pictures please click here.

I could go on and on but I'll let the other team members share some of their highlights.

Former Porn Actress April Garris:
“Out of all the conventions that I have thus far attended with the Pink Cross, I do believe that this was the most impactful and powerful. I saw God move in ways that I hadn't experienced before, and I know that the Holy Spirit was at work in that dark arena. Hundreds and hundreds of seeds were planted, and I got to share my testimony and my Lord with numerous individuals. Among them was one particular divine appointment that the Lord gave me. On Saturday, I was able to present almost the entire gospel message to one of the fans. When I asked him how a person gets to heaven, he said by being a good person. I was able to clarify that salvation is not based upon works, but a personal relationship with Christ, and why Christ died on the cross. I encouraged him that a porn convention was not the place that God wanted him to be, and he agreed. He took a couple of Bibles. There was definitely conviction there.

On Saturday morning, Jan and I were ordained by Shelley, right outside the Convention Center. It was powerful!!! She prophesied over us, and pointed out what our strengths are, and how God is going to use us. It was a spiritual re-affirmation from heaven, and I was humbled to know that He loves and trusts me that much. After the ordination, I felt stronger than ever, and I walked into that convention fully confident that God just did a mighty work, and that He would continue it. Indeed, He did. We flooded the convention hall with prayer as we walked around and prayed over every single production company. We prayed judgment and deliverance, and I know that the Holy Spirit was guiding all of our prayers, and literally spoke through us to proclaim His word, and judgment upon the porn industry and the kingdom of darkness.”

Former Porn Actress Jan Meza:
“AVN 2010 was amazing. I saw and felt Gods spirit move greatly throughout the whole convention. I was sick and riddled with pain, a mysterious sickness came upon me right before I was going to leave for the AVN and wasn’t sure I’d make it there, but God empowered me to go, HIS strength and mercy was upon me so that I could take my place with The Pink Cross Foundation and help HIS light be seen and HIS word be heard. I saw Gods plan unfold and lives touched, I saw prophecies fulfilled. I was also ordained a chaplain through the Order of Saint Martin which was extremely humbling and something I take very seriously.

The Pink Cross was able to bless hundreds of men and women with Christian CD’s, Christian books, Bibles, informational pamphlets regarding STD’s and the law; we were able to reach those working in the sex industry with gifts to show them how God loves them and values them, but also to educate them about the negative affects of the porn industry. I reached out to one woman in particular who had been a victim of the porn industry and a struggling alcoholic, she was considering returning to the porn industry to do cougar films (women 40+) she was at a loss because she felt it was all she could do to support herself financially even though she had been out of the industry for over ten years. I prayed with her and talked with her for a long time after which she promised to reconsider her options and seek help. The Pink Cross could not continue to reach out to people if it were not for the support of our Christian brothers and sisters, thank you for believing in us, thank you for helping God to work through us, thank you for your prayers, and thank you for your faithfulness. To God be all the glory!”

Former Porn Actress Jenni Case:
I had attended this same convention about 15 years ago when I was only 18 years old. I went to it and signed autographs and had my picture taken with fans, etc. I attended this for about 3 years in a row but I had not been back to it since then. The first thing that I realized is that God was going to send me back there to help others. God was going to use my past to help others there and kind of "make up" for the damage that was done. I also think that going back to this convention helped me in my healing process as well. When I got there, I was surprised how much bigger it was than before. The main thing that blew my mind was the amount of women there who were attending as fans. These women appeared to be mostly "normal" average women. Mothers, housewives, even Grandmas. They were there with their husbands, boyfriends, and friends and family, etc.. I could not believe my eyes, it was like the porn convention was a tourist attraction, a circus, a freak show for everyone to come and see. I prayed that those women would see the truth and prayed to God and he helped me reach out to them and many started coming over to our table and talking to us and taking Joyce Meyer books and other things.

Another thing that was interesting to see was the look on people's faces when they would walk by our booth. They would look confused it seemed like they wondered who we are and what we were doing there. It was almost like something in their head said "this doesn't fit in here" and that would make them interested and come over to out booth to talk to us and find out more. My favorite part of the whole convention was giving the gifts to the porn stars that work at the booths. That was the highlight to me and I loved it so much because all day these women sign autographs,and get pictures taken of them. It seems like people take and take from them all of the time but nobody gives anything to them. These women were so happy to get these gifts and couldn't believe we were giving them something just because we care and we love them.

This porn convention was nothing more than "women for sale" or slavery. I pray that God will save some of these women and men and use them to help others like he has done in my life. I also thought we had a great group of people on our team and I enjoyed meeting all of them and working with them as well. I am so happy to take part in this ministry and help the Pink Cross at Porn conventions and with whatever I can. One thing that I realized from all of this is that ministries like the Pink Cross are needed so much and it is a huge task but God will continue to help us and use us. I wish that something like the Pink Cross had been at the conventions that I went to when I was younger but I am glad they are there now to help because this is a huge problem.

Pink Cross Team Member Heather Jabornik:
“From praying for our nation and declaring God's Word over the porn industry at the top of the Stratosphere - after being driven there by a man named Daniel(very funny) who happened to be a Christian and prayed courage and protection over us before he dropped us off, to meeting and praying with a child of God who wants to leave the industry once and for all, to marching around the Hustler booth 7 times to symbolically represent the victory of Joshua and the Battle of Jericho - only to find out later that there was a 6.5 magnitude earthquake in Northern California's city of Eureka (seriously?) at the exact same time we were marching that was felt all the way to the capitol of CA (where we have been fighting), to having a dude named Jonathan Abraham (really though?) offer to drive us back to our hotel from the convention in an SUV limo, to being asked to lead a porn star through a prayer of salvation on a porn TV show so their viewers at home knew how to accept Christ, to ordaining two ex porn stars as chaplains to the porn industry under the Order of St. Martin, to praying with two other chaplains from the same order directly in front of the very porn company's booth that released a DVD of old footage of women Pink Cross has helped leave the industry, to showing up at the AVN awards show and standing front and center with our toes on the red carpet for over an hour discreetly praying in power as porn stars and pornographers passed just inches in front of us, to equally discreetly anointing with anointing oil and praying over a certain Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous gentleman as he made his way through the crowd, to personally being released in the spiritual through prayer and declaration by my mentor to step into the call of serving an equally in-need industry - only to have the chorus of "You Ain't Seen Nothing Yet" come over the loud speakers the very moment she finished praying.”

Former Porn Addict Scott Smith:
“God did many things at AEE this year. Once again he put us in the perfect location. On Saturday when then fans came in there was a river of people walking by our booth. We were able to hand out over 700 DVD’s that have the Dead Porn Stars Memorial video on them plus many other cards, ex-porn star stories and information. We made friends with our neighbors and had many conversations with them.

There were several big highlights for me. The first is I gave a Bible to one of the porn stars there who has been reading the Bible and talking about it in her blog and Twitter. She was very thankful and I got to share a little of what porn did to me.” and why I was there at the convention with Pink Cross. The second was going to the Palms on Saturday to pray while the red carpet for the AVN awards was going on. There were a bunch of people there. I saw Robin Leach. It was a very powerful time of prayer. Shelley was able to talk to a few porn stars and we prayed for all of them. This was the best convention yet.

God really gave all of us a supernatural gifting as we all worked together and there were no major breakdowns and we all found our rolls and fulfilled them well. We were a well oiled machine. I just hope and pray that the relationships that were begun and that we have been building will continue to be blessed by God. I pray many other who might have been too scared or nervous to come talk to us will seek us out through the website or e-mail. Thanks to everyone who prayed for us. Your prayers were very helpful and very much needed.”

Pink Cross Team Member Matthew Donahue:
“I must say that God really did show us favor & provision. We were able to move about freely in the heart of enemy territory. My mind, & I believe the rest of the team's minds, were protected. We were also able to pray freely. God was clearly at work & I'm thankful to have been a part of the conference & the team.”

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Nyesha, formerly known as porn star Mahlia Milian, came to Pink Cross for help back in August of this year when she was living in a hotel room pregnant and trying to escape porn. Well, she DID escape porn and is living a new life now thanks to many of you who donated!

She recently gave birth to a sweet baby girl named Savannah in November where she had a very difficult c-section operation. She is still trying to heal from the operation and yet is out looking for a job because she doesn't have rent or food. She needs our help desperately!

Please will you help Nyesha and her baby by donating below so we can help her pay her rent and food and make her Christmas more special? We also want to send gifts for her and the baby!

PLEASE HELP NYESHA BY DONATING SECURELY ONLINE AT:

A HUGE THANK YOU FROM PINK CROSS FOR CARING!

Before I ever did this stuff I was an average girl. I was definitely a little different in some ways but for the most part I was pretty average. Well, I’ve made some pretty poor choices in my life. I take full responsibility for each one. I’ve seen a side of the world that nobody would want to see. It’s evil, dark and very manipulative.

People in the porn industry are numb to real life and are like zombies walking around doing what they have become so accustomed to. It’s really sad. It’s really painful to see. You have no idea how badly their feelings have been hurt. The abuse that goes on in this industry is completely ridiculous. The way these young ladies are treated is totally sick and brainwashing. I left due to the trauma I experienced even through that short time. The industry forgets that these little girls are human and no human on earth deserves to be abused such as they are.

I just really wanted to justify myself to those who have no idea what goes on in the porn industry or inside the minds of these young jaded girls. Most of us didn’t dream of becoming porn stars, we some how fell into it. Some of us believed once you’re in, there is no way out. WRONG. I got out. I will never go back! What does not kill me will make me stronger. God will never let me down, even during the worst of times.

I am so thankful to have been brought back to God through all this. My one and only God! He feels the void inside my heart and the empty space deep inside my soul with unfailing love and never ending mercy. He is the one and only solution to our lives. I am grateful for each and every single day because I have Jesus Christ by my side. He has given me so much hope and I am more than 110% positive that through Jesus Christ all things are possible!

When it comes to life, its how you handle the circumstances you’ve been put under and what you choose to do about it that makes you who are today. I have decided to not let the past break me but instead to make me even better than I would have been before.

I would like to thank the Pink Cross for the amazing support they have shown and given me. Without the Pink Cross, I would not be able to share my story or come clean like this. I love the Pink Cross and everything they are doing to stop the porn industry, as it really does kill the souls of the people who enter. Thank you so much Shelley. God has really used your past to give us hope and through him, to help save us.

I would like to thank God for putting Shelley and the Pink Cross together to help save the lives and put an end to the abuse of the wicked porn industry. Thank you Pink Cross. I am truly thankful.

I also wanted to acknowledge the hard times I put other people around me through. I am sorry. You didn’t deserve to be hurt like that. I wish you all the best. You know who I am talking to.

Amber AKA Jessie Jewels

Please write to Oprah and tell her how you feel about the "porn" show she did yesterday. http://www.oprah.com/community/thread/120803

Let's stand up for truth and make a difference!! Tell Oprah about Pink Cross at www.thepinkcross.org and www.shelleylubben.com where former porn actresses tell the TRUTH!

Please ask Oprah to show the dark side of porn, the MAJORITY of what is going on in the porn industry!

Please also view me being interviewed after Oprah's show where I tell the truth about porn in an interview with Eyewitness News 58 at http://www.bakersfieldnow.com/news/local/70338622.html.

Thank you to ALL of you who support me and Pink Cross!

Please join us in this fight and help us to make a difference in the lives of millions of people and those who are trapped in the porn industry!!

**My letter to Oprah:

Dear Oprah,

I would personally like to ask you why your correspondant, Lisa Ling, would not interview me when she had her chance at AdultCon where she was interviewing "Porn King" Steve Hirsch? I asked her kindly if she would like to interview me, a former porn actress, to hear the other side of porn, the majority of what is going on in the porn industry and she declined.

Why Oprah would she decline to interview me when she had the chance conveniently available to her? Why would you allow her to do this? I know your camera men filmed me talking to Lisa Ling and Steve Hirsch, pornographer, because MY videographer caught in on film which everyone can see at www.shelleylubben.com/slubben in my videos (search for Wimpy Pornographer).

So why did you not show that footage? Why will you not invite me to speak out on your show?

Your "porn" show only showed interviews of pro-porn advocates such as porn stars, pornographers and porn columnists. I want to know why? Don't you want to hear the other side about the porn industry from former porn actresses? I have irrefutable evidence against the porn industry, including Steve Hirsch, AIM (Adult Industry Medical Healthcare Foundation), Hustler, Playboy and I feel YOU, being a media leader and someone many people look up to, need to show the other side of porn and then let the viewers decide how they feel about pornography based on hearing BOTH SIDES!!

In fact, I have publicly challenged some of your pro-porn guests and NONE have the guts to challenge me. Why not do a show where you have a porn debate and let myself and other former porn actresses debate against pro-porn advocates?

I hope you will be honest and show the other side of porn as well. Myself and other former porn actresses represent the MAJORITY of what is going on in porn, not Jenna Jameson who hasn't even made hardcore pornography. Not Steve Hirsch who abuses women and makes money off of them. But the women who have been abused, slapped, kicked, hair pulled, caught multiple STDs and even died. Please show the whole truth Oprah. You may visit my web site at www.shelleylubben.com and contact me to be interviewed. I will be there in a heart beat.

Thank you for reading my letter and I look forward to hearing from you,

Shelley Lubben, former porn actress and founder of Pink Cross Foundation at www.thepinkcross.org
 

This is so sad. I hope all porn consumers reading this see what they are contributing to!

Damien Michaels, male porn star, was found murdered in the Comfort Inn in Woodland Hillls, California, on Tuesday, October 27. Damien has been in over 250 xxx movies.

Damien was stabbed many times according to police.

According to http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,570689,00.html "He’d also gotten involved in drugs, said adult film producer Rob Spallone, who told MyFoxLa.com that he wasn’t surprised by Michaels’ murder.

"He got hooked on the crystal meth and crack and that was the end of it," Spallone said."

On a YouTube Video Diary, Damien stated that he found girls to bring in to the biz as an agent, that he was starting to build his agency again, and he had been a porn actor for years, after he started in mainstream. You can see in the vid that he has teeth missing. He tells how he entered porn and more on the video below.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rN-i4N-az4U

Please pray for Damien's family and for every single person trapped in the porn industry to be set free by the power of Jesus Christ! God has made those precious people for something better than porn!

Get help whether you're stuck doing or viewing porn at www.thepinkcross.org

We love you and believe you are made for greater things than porn!

 Many days I sit and wonder at what point I lost control of my life and put it in the hands of porn valley agents. Many girls in porn come from backgrounds of drugged filled homes, have been beat or raped.

My story is a little different. Growing up my household at times was filled with domestic violence but my parents stayed together and it seemed to rarely effect my sister and I. I went to church weekly, involved in beauty pageants, Cheerleading, dance , girl scouts and had all the material things a young girl could ask for. That soon all changed when my mom decided to leave our dad and our household income changed for the worst. There was a time when we lived with different family members, would be low on food and even got kicked out of our apartment.

The winter of 2004 due to money issues we lost our condo and were forced to live in a house that was filled with drugs and crime. I was dating a great guy at the time and his house became my safe heaven but that relationship soon ended. My sister and I moved and I became a hooters girl but still wasn't making enough money for rent and school so I start stripping but only for a few weeks.

Looking in the news paper I saw an ad seeking swim suit models and I decided to go in for a test shoot and the next day the agent called and said he had a shoot for me which would pay $600 and all I had to do was go topless. So, I did. After that came solo work and eventually BG (boy-girl) scenes. I hated this guy and how dirty I felt when he touched me. He would book me at least once a week and I needed the money so I sucked my pride up and ignored the wrong I was doing. Needing more money to be on my own I posted photos on sexyjobs.com not knowing this would be the biggest mistake of my life.

The following morning my phone was blowing up with offers. I did my first scene not knowing anything and started flying across the map each week, booked everyday and made a nice sum of money. I soon started missing class, quit cheer and knowing that I hated what I was doing I kept shooting only looking at the money.

I would cry on the set and scrub my skin so hard after scenes because I felt dirty and just hated myself and how I was being treated. I couldn't sleep at night and began taking up to twenty pills a week! While in porn I had money stolen from me from the agent I had. I did scenes for cheap rates and was told that if I canceled a scene I would have to pay a kill fee so at times I was forced to do stuff I didn't want to do.

The first time I did a swallowing scene and facial I was forced. They waited to the very end to tell me. It was only my second time doing porn.

My worst day was when I was forced to use a sponge to do a scene because it was already booked and my monthly came early I had never did anything like this. The sponge was pushed so far and got stuck that I had to be taken to the hospital I had caught a infection and they had to open me up to remove the sponge. I wasn't able to work for a few weeks and the agent stole two of my checks to replace the money he didn't get from me leaving me broke and without food. I was threatened by other girls that if I didn't do the parties the agent set up I would stopped being booked, and would have to find a place to live.

The worst mistake I made was allowing my 18 year old sister to get into porn. She started partying, hanging with the wrong people and did everything I stayed away from. She left porn when she became pregnant with her daughter who is truly a blessing and changed her life for the better. She did a few scenes but I am proud to say she's in college doing great and now porn/drug FREE!! I soon quit porn myself and should have stayed gone…

I went back to school and tried to get control of my life again got back into cheerleading, dating a new guy but deep down was still depressed and needing money again. I turned to private dates because I thought it would be easier then porn but it was all wrong and dirty. I went back to porn and decided to get a female agent hoping things would be better because she said I would have more control over my career.

NONE of this happened and I was booked out, not sleeping, going to club events and my life was a mess again and sleeping pills ruled my life. I was a well known escort making good money but deep down it wasn't me. I didn't own my life anymore. Porn, money and sex did. VERY nasty and untrue rumors started to spread around about me around the same time I also found out I was pregnant and I do blame all the traveling, stress and crazy life style I was living for the loss of my baby. I slumped into an attitude and became very depressed but hid it with material things. I covered my swollen eyes from crying with makeup, smiling on the outside when I really wanted to just end my life.

I recently did my last scene and walked away from it all having nothing. I struggled for awhile with money, having a normal relationship and just finding myself again. Not only did I lose myself but I lost friends and family. I found out in the Spring that I was pregnant and from that moment on I knew I had to fight to keep my life safe from porn, escorting and sex.

My baby is due very soon and though I won't be able to give he/she right now or all the things a newborn needs he/she will have the love of a pure clean mom that he/she can be proud of and look up to. I wake up knowing that my life is changing for the better and although times are hard due to being on bed rest for a high risk pregnancy I have turned down all private work and offers for pregnant porn, I will never go back to that lifestyle.

Yes the money was great but it didn't make up for all the pain and trouble my body has went through. I've decided that all any help and knowledge that I receive from the Pink Cross I will use it someday to help other girls who are also caught up in the porn life style and believe they can’t survive without porn.

Thank you to Shelley and everyone at the Pink Cross who give girls like me hope and a new out look at life. Thank you to any of you who offer to help me and my baby.

Nyesha 

PLEASE HELP NYESHA WHO IS PREGNANT AND ON BED REST BY DONATING SECURELY ONLINE AT:

SHE REALLY NEEDS OUR HELP ASAP. SHE NEEDS RENT, FOOD, BABY SUPPLIES, STROLLER, ETC... PLEASE HAVE A HEART AND HELP HER. THANK YOU FOR CARING!

*Whatever we do for Nyesha, we do for Christ! Matthew 25:33-40