I have been free of porn now for about 3 days. I need people to pray for me. I know now if I am tempted, to go to this web site, pink cross. I also believe in what is said on a podcast that I get for free from the ministry of Kenneth and Gloria Copeland.

I will take a look at Champions Center in Tacoma and see if they have podcasts.

I have been praying fully prostrate which means that I pray lying down to show that to me, God is number one. I am not number one. I am a slave of God. That means I am trying to discern exactly what God wants me to do, and I know that looking at pornography is not what God wants me to do.

I will be reading the Bible regularly.

I need suggestions for podcasts of Christian ministries that are available for free at apple i tunes, that would help me.

To top it all off, I am unemployed and I need prayers as well on that front.

Some people in my family do not believe in Jesus Christ and I am trying to pray for them as well and bring up the matter from time to time without seeming to be too annoying and bothersome.

I am going to have some massive bills from a recent hospital stay so I hope I can get some help on that front as well. i mean prayers.

I do have health insurance but it will only pay for so much. so prayers are what i need.

So some prayers would be welcome.

As far as pornography, it makes me feel terrible about myself, so that reason alone is reason enough to avoid it like the plague.

I gave away to the library some of my movies because I felt God was calling me to be less of a film student and more of a Christian. By "movies" I just mean my DVD movie collection, some of them were R rated films. I am going to simplify my life and my possessions so that I can focus on Jesus.

I am also trying to get along with my neighbors in this apartment building. The walls are very thin. I have thoughtlessly played music, which offended my neighbors. I am trying to get along with them.

Above all I am trying to stay out of jail or stay out of trouble with the law, because it often used to seem they knew exactly where and when I used to purchase pornography and use a cash card, and then when I came back there would be a cop car right there next to my building. They were warning me and I got rid of all of that pornography and I want no trouble with the long arm of the law. theoretically pornography is legal, but the truth is, it is perhaps only semi-legal in a small conservative town.

Above all, I don't want to do anything that brings shame to the family. And if this were made known, I would be looked down upon. I go to church sometimes on Sundays and sometimes on Wednesdays. I want above all to follow Jesus Christ and not the world.

I like that song about not getting on board "that long black train." "the devil's the conductor on that long black train." you don't want to get on board that train. you want to get on board the Heaven Express, not the hell express.

i also like that quote about "as for me, and my house, we shall serve the Lord." i can't make up the mind of my relatives, but i can make up my own mind, that I will serve Jesus Christ.