My 1 month mark.
This is an ongoing thread, last setback was on October 22, 2009.
It's been 1 month since I looked at pornography or masturbated. My Bishop is very happy with my progress and says if I keep it up, I could probably get a limited use temple recommend and start my mission papers by about mid January give or take. I haven't really been tempted very much in these 2-4 weeks, but I heard after 2 weeks is when the temptation starts to get really powerful.
I guess I could always use extra support, even from people I don't know. Multiple times now, I've envisioned myself walking through the doors of the Provo Utah temple completely in tears of joy, showing my new recommend, and being asked why I'm crying so much. And then I tell the temple worker I'm finally worthy, after so long.
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1 month(30 days) down now. 1 month or slightly longer is the longest I ever remember going without porn. I'll be breaking new ground shortly. The visions of the temple, and the resulting tears of joy are becoming stronger.
I am definitely breaking through shame. I've been looking at porn for nearly 7 years, and the first time I told anyone outside of family or bishops was May 2008. There are now several people in my life who check up on me frequently and who I can call or text if the temptation ever gets really powerful. I also attend recovery meetings for porn addicts occasionally. As for worship music, I am learning to play both piano and harp, and the songs I'm most interested in learning are church songs.
Sounds like you have all the key ingredients for a full recovery. Desire, accountability, hobbies, faith are all you need to beat this. You got 2 weeks under your belt, thats great, keep up the hard work and you will experience a world of great things. We look forward to hearing more good news.
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First off bro... I am celebrating with you and thankful for the day to day victories that are adding up in your life.
Also... what an encouragment to see all of the accountability that you are surrounding yourself with. You've broken through the shame... awesome!
It was at these moments in the healing process that I would take a few minutes... and right a letter of encouragement to myself to read later if (and when) the temptation begins to call out to me from the computer screen... it's just a suggestion, but this might be a good time to write one of those letters so that you can remember what God's approval feels like... what God's faithfulness feels like... what victory tastes like... and all that kind of stuff that you are riding high on...
tuck it away in your Bible and be ready to pull it out from time to time.
You've inspired me to put some worship music on this morning!
'But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.' (Isaiah 53:5)
Chadwick
Pink Cross Moderator
3 weeks now. This is longer than I've usually spent away from the addictions, and is almost to 1 month, which is the longest I ever remember spending away from porn. I haven't really been tempted very much, and each day is an even bigger disincentive to backslide, although that doesn't mean I never expect to be tempted again. I'm getting closer and closer to the temple, and my mission. 3 weeks down, the rest of my life to go, one day at a time.
mleblanc138
Thank you Jesus that you have given this man the strength to get through these two weeks. Lord continue to strengthen Him and bless Him. Continue to work in His life and use him Lord for your work and your will in Jesus name Amen=)
take care
peace,hugs,prayers
boldness and blessings
Carrie
Moderator
Pink Cross Team
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Hey, mleblanc;
That is AWESOME!! Congratulations. I am so happy for you.
Remember, though, you are not worthy because of anything you do or don't do...You are worthy because of who you are in Jesus Christ, the fact that He paid the penalty for your sin, and that He has promised to help us overcome sin by His Holy Spirit. He has helped many break the cycle of porn addiction by the power of His Holy Spirit, and He can do the same for you.
I'm not sure how long it takes before the temptation starts to resurface, but even so, Christ is stronger than this, or any, temptation. Just continue to seek Him and pray for His strength to build you up daily.
Remember that the Lord loves you, and that His strength is made perfect in our weaknesses.
April
Beloved Branch
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