I agree with Carolmarie, you do need to be thankful for the 3 months you were clean. And figure out what made you fall into temptation.
The hardest thing to me is to learn to come to God over and over again -no matter how many times- to continue to come and confess your sins and ask for forgiveness, and move on. Let God remove the shame. Jesus took our shame and condemnation too. Beating ourselves up and punishing ourselves and etc will not make us feel better, and it will not make God feel better about us. He does not need for us to do that. And it won't make us stop messing up. It actually makes us feel even more unworthy, which makes us turn away from God and back into sin. God wants us to come to Him again and again, and just receive His forgiveness. I'm preaching to myself here, sigh.
Think about David's life in the Bible. Think about the sins he did. They were grievous and many. And yet, in the old testament and the new testament, both say that David was a man after God's heart. Why? Cuz he kept coming back to God. He refused to wallow in self-pity for long, but continued to remind himself of God's mercy and compassion and love and forgiveness, etc. That is what we all need to learn.
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are Mine!...I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;...You are precious and honored in my eyes, and I love you...do not be afraid, for I am with you." (Is.43:4-5)
Finding it hard to believe anymore. "Friends" have let me down got drunk the other night and said somethings that can't be taken back. What trigger the fall? people taking behind my back, no job for over a year now and oh get this i saw an old employer the other day in his work van but guess what? The asshole hired someone else! so tell me this I've been a good little boy went to church read my bible and prayed but you know what? NOTHING but a big ol pile of crap! people say i'm lazy and not a man cause i can't support my family. I feel like a charity case all the time! They repossed my car today!! I use to tell people that God would take care of me, well FUCK that SHIT. Where's God someone tell me. I'm just a hopeless cause lost in time amd space There is no hope fuck you and the horse you rode in on Oh by the way IM NOT FUCKING DAVID. I don't think you people know what im going through. I got more to say but I doubt anyone will respond so... picture me with two fingers in the air I think you know which ones!
I haven't been able to find a full time job for a year either, just have a small part time one to support my family. My husband is sick and I have a small child and it can be very stressful, but GOD is still in control and I will get through all this with HIM.
When everything falls apart, God is there....
You are not a hopeless cause, there is hope....praying for you friend!
Carolemarie
Moderator
Pink Cross Team Member
thanks Mike. you've been a good friend. @carolemarie thank you for your words of wisdom. you are a very nice lady. to everyone else who has prayed thanks
Glad to hear the crisis of emotion has calmed down...
I do understand perfectly. That kind of stress is a lot to deal with. Mike shared some really good stuff and so did Carolmarie. I don't have much to add. I already sent you a response via email, so you can read that.
Just be encouraged and keep posting!
Blessings,
Tonya
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are Mine!...I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;...You are precious and honored in my eyes, and I love you...do not be afraid, for I am with you." (Is.43:4-5)
I am really sorry about all that you are going through and has happened to you recently. I know that your family needs you and loves you and that is all you need to know right now.
What you are going through has to suck and you are right, no one knows what that is or can feel your pain. You cant complicate this bad set of events by feeding your addictions, only more bad will come from that.
Get it together Man, stop drinking, lay of the porn and take care of your family...and before you jump down my throat by saying HOW DO I DO THAT, take care of them by loving them. Love for your familiy is what makes you a man not money.
You dont need a car or a job to do that, so start by getting the love back in your angry heart. The hell with your x-boss, back stabbin friends whatever. Stop using your energy on BS.
As far as God and Church, they didnt do this to you so dont take it out on them. Beleive it or not there are a lot of people out there that care about you, find them, cling to them and dont piss them off.
I am praying for you whether you want it or not and If you lived in NJ I would give you a job because I believe in you, beleive in yourself and others will follow.
Love you Brother, I dont walk in your shoes but I hurt because you hurt. Get back in the game and stay in touch.
You are doing so good! What triggered the fall? usually something happens that triggers that behavior.....don't be so hard on yourself, just confess it and get up and go on!!!!
God knows that we fail, but the word says that if we confess our sins (to Him) He is faithful to forgive us. It also says that if we confess our sins to one another He is faithful to heal us....so God is working on healing you....
Love and blessings!
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I agree with Carolmarie, you do need to be thankful for the 3 months you were clean. And figure out what made you fall into temptation.
The hardest thing to me is to learn to come to God over and over again -no matter how many times- to continue to come and confess your sins and ask for forgiveness, and move on. Let God remove the shame. Jesus took our shame and condemnation too. Beating ourselves up and punishing ourselves and etc will not make us feel better, and it will not make God feel better about us. He does not need for us to do that. And it won't make us stop messing up. It actually makes us feel even more unworthy, which makes us turn away from God and back into sin. God wants us to come to Him again and again, and just receive His forgiveness. I'm preaching to myself here, sigh.
Think about David's life in the Bible. Think about the sins he did. They were grievous and many. And yet, in the old testament and the new testament, both say that David was a man after God's heart. Why? Cuz he kept coming back to God. He refused to wallow in self-pity for long, but continued to remind himself of God's mercy and compassion and love and forgiveness, etc. That is what we all need to learn.
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are Mine!...I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;...You are precious and honored in my eyes, and I love you...do not be afraid, for I am with you." (Is.43:4-5)
Finding it hard to believe anymore. "Friends" have let me down got drunk the other night and said somethings that can't be taken back. What trigger the fall? people taking behind my back, no job for over a year now and oh get this i saw an old employer the other day in his work van but guess what? The asshole hired someone else! so tell me this I've been a good little boy went to church read my bible and prayed but you know what? NOTHING but a big ol pile of crap! people say i'm lazy and not a man cause i can't support my family. I feel like a charity case all the time! They repossed my car today!! I use to tell people that God would take care of me, well FUCK that SHIT. Where's God someone tell me. I'm just a hopeless cause lost in time amd space There is no hope fuck you and the horse you rode in on Oh by the way IM NOT FUCKING DAVID. I don't think you people know what im going through. I got more to say but I doubt anyone will respond so... picture me with two fingers in the air I think you know which ones!
I haven't been able to find a full time job for a year either, just have a small part time one to support my family. My husband is sick and I have a small child and it can be very stressful, but GOD is still in control and I will get through all this with HIM.
When everything falls apart, God is there....
You are not a hopeless cause, there is hope....praying for you friend!
Carolemarie
Moderator
Pink Cross Team Member
thanks Mike. you've been a good friend. @carolemarie thank you for your words of wisdom. you are a very nice lady. to everyone else who has prayed thanks
I do understand perfectly. That kind of stress is a lot to deal with. Mike shared some really good stuff and so did Carolmarie. I don't have much to add. I already sent you a response via email, so you can read that.
Just be encouraged and keep posting!
Blessings,
Tonya
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are Mine!...I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;...You are precious and honored in my eyes, and I love you...do not be afraid, for I am with you." (Is.43:4-5)
Doug,
I am really sorry about all that you are going through and has happened to you recently. I know that your family needs you and loves you and that is all you need to know right now.
What you are going through has to suck and you are right, no one knows what that is or can feel your pain. You cant complicate this bad set of events by feeding your addictions, only more bad will come from that.
Get it together Man, stop drinking, lay of the porn and take care of your family...and before you jump down my throat by saying HOW DO I DO THAT, take care of them by loving them. Love for your familiy is what makes you a man not money.
You dont need a car or a job to do that, so start by getting the love back in your angry heart. The hell with your x-boss, back stabbin friends whatever. Stop using your energy on BS.
As far as God and Church, they didnt do this to you so dont take it out on them. Beleive it or not there are a lot of people out there that care about you, find them, cling to them and dont piss them off.
I am praying for you whether you want it or not and If you lived in NJ I would give you a job because I believe in you, beleive in yourself and others will follow.
Love you Brother, I dont walk in your shoes but I hurt because you hurt. Get back in the game and stay in touch.
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"A fight is not won by one punch, either learn to endure or hire a bodyguard" Bruce Lee
You are doing so good! What triggered the fall? usually something happens that triggers that behavior.....don't be so hard on yourself, just confess it and get up and go on!!!!
God knows that we fail, but the word says that if we confess our sins (to Him) He is faithful to forgive us. It also says that if we confess our sins to one another He is faithful to heal us....so God is working on healing you....
Love and blessings!
Carolemarie
Moderator
Pink Cross Team Member
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"A fight is not won by one punch, either learn to endure or hire a bodyguard" Bruce Lee