I was introduced to porn when I was about 12 years old. I was babysitting a neighbors kids. I found a penthouse magazine in there closet. Thats how my porn addition began. I started masturbating all through my teen years. I was baptized when I was around 13 and became a born again christian. I was disabled and walking on crutches at the time. You all may think im crazy but im not. I was sitting in the living room mwatching tv and heard a voice call my name. I believe it was the voice of the holy spirit. I didnt answer the holy spirits voice because I didnt know who it was. As I got older I started renting X rated adult movies. I was sitting in my bedroom one night and heard the holy spirits voice again. Again I didnt answer the voice right because I thought it was a neighbor outside my window. I believe the holy spirit was trying to warn me that the devil was about to attack me. As I went to be I started masturbating and had very bad perverted impure thoughts. Today im in a wheelchair. My legs are very stiff and I can hardly move them. I cant even sleep at night. I have to take sleeping pills so I can sleep at night Porn has destroyed my life. I am fearful that the holy spirit has left me and I have lost my salvation. I have been reading the bible alot. I try to read it every morning and every night. Please I need serious prayer.