Well here it goes. I was saved when I was 11yrs old. At 13 I saw my frist porno pic. I still remember it so vividly. I would also look at my father's stash. When I moved out on my own after high school I fell in love with my wife. Things were going pretty good for about 3 months then one day as I was in line at the local convenience store I noticed the magazines behind the counter and bought one. Then I bought another the next day. These weren't like my dad's. These magazine's had full penetration,lesbains, and other nasty stuff. I was hooked. My wife didn't mind too much at first, she even helped with my fantasies ,including a threesome with another girl. On my 21st birthday she got me a stripper at work. I was the man! At one point I had over 100 magazines and about 30 vhs tapes(this was before dvds were big). Well as you all can guess I started paying more attention to the porn than my wife. We never had enough money because I was spending it all on porno. After many arguements and fights (one time we were fighting and I said "I don't believe in God" my heart sank and I wish I could take it back to this very day) I went to church with her one day( I kept thinking this can't be all there is to life) As soon as I stepped foot in the door people were smiling at me saying how glad they were to see me. The only thing I could think was that these people were fake! Losers! I didn't want to be there. So occasionally I would go. Good thing I did because I wasn't spending Sunday mornings "by myself" but started to soften my calloused heart. I rededicated my life to the Lord! I stared counselling with my pastor . That helped a litte so I started to see a professional (christian) that helped a lot! I joined the mens choir, helped out in Awanas , and just totally surrendered my life, heart and mind to God.I was truely blessed. Fastforward to May of 2009 I got laid off from my job ( I'm an electrician ). Feeling depressed and abandoned I turned back to porno. By August I had over 50,000 porno pics on my hard drive. I stopped going to church. My wife knew what I was doing ,I'm not going to kid myself anymore. On Wednesday,August 19, my wife got an email from her sister about this site. She said something to me about it but I just blew her off. So she wrote the website down and put it by the computer. On Friday after checking my email I was about ready to spend some time on my fravorite sites when I saw the paper. I went to the site thinking I wouldn't know any of the girls. Boy was I wrong! I think seeing the video of Nadia and how many girls were professing christians helped out alot because tears came to my eyes. I felt guilty, shame and I missed Jesus. I prayed to God to forgive me and give me strenght to clean up my life. My life (and computer) is now ponro free!!! I still get tempeted but I've been praying and reading my bible. My pastor ,deacon, and my wife are a big help. Thank God for them!!! Praise God for Shelley for following God's will in her life, and to the men and women who have made it out. Thank all of you for your prayers and support, keep it coming as I still don't have a job yet.May God bless you and keep you. Here are some verses that have hepled me: James 4:7; Gal 5:16-26; Eph 5:3; 2 Tim 2:22; Phil 4:8 ; 1 Thess 4:3-5; 1 Cor 6:18; Heb 13:4; 1 Cor 10:13