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Hi everybody, I'm new in this forum, but not in porn addiction and I'd like to share my testimony:
I'm Vicho from Peru and I'm a pornaddict.
I did not want to admit it first because I felt like "Hey! I've tried quiting before and it never worked so, who am I fooling? I feel good this way anyway!" But deep inside I know that it was eating my life bits by bits, I may not be like those people from the documentary "A drug called pornography" who had touch the very bottom of the addiction, but I don't want to be that way neither, I want 2 be free.
I think it all started when I was less than 13, at the age of 17
I just tasted it and i could not stop consuming it, first my dad's vhs, then I started buying yellow newspapers (Here in Peru we have cheap newspapers where they portrait seminamed women)
just for getting aroused, after that I started getting from friends hardcore videos...
It went on like that until I met Jesus at 18
But 2 years later, I was again on the dark road...
Now with the Internet I could get free hardcore porn with just a click. Every day until today, I was in front of the computer looking for porn and collecting preview videos.
I've erased my collection a couple of times before trying to quit but later on I was again hunting for more.
I did not want to be cured, but I felt bad inside... depresed; confused. I saw that most of the time I used on consuming porn more than 5 hrs in a row!!
I want to be cured, and I don't want to waste any more second in that hateful business anymore!!!
I'm burning my dvds, and any porn material I have to overcome my addiction!
It's glad to be with people who understand me :)
Comments
The more I read the more confident I feel that I can beat this. My testimony is simalar but I put it in different forum. I think it is great that you have come foward with this. I feel so much better being able to share with others who have and are walking down the same path. I have hidden this from everyone until now. I am afraid to tell my wife whom i love with all my heart and with Gods help I hope I can kick this on my own.
Just remember you are not alone, God and the rest of us are out there for you.
God Bless and Good Luck
Porn is not only a sin against God to watch it and sexually lust for others, it is also a sin against a wife (or a husband.) The only way to break any sin's power is to tell your spouse and ask them to forgive you. It's not right to keep secrets in marriage, especially when it includes the other one like sex does. No one can kick this "on their own" while keeping secrets from a spouse and not confessing their sin to the one who was sinned against. God always requires the hardest route in situations like this but they are always the best for us... and the most freeing.
Newstarperu
Welcome to the foumns. Thanky you for sharing with us and I pray you will find strength and courage as you meet with others here.
I am so glad that you have come to a place where you are wanting to burn your DVD and porn matierial. I pray that God will grant you strength and courage as you continue on this healing journy.
take care
peace,hugs,prayers
boldness and blessings
Carrie
Moderator
Pink Cross Team
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REMEMBER THAT NO MATTER HOW FAR YOU HAVE FALLEN
IT IS NEVER FURTHER THAN GOD CAN REACH
it is such a blessing that you found the forum and I KNOW God will help you get set free, because He loves you and wants the best for you.
I will be praying for you!
Carolemarie
Moderator
Pink Cross Team Member
He can set you free, I'm living proof of that. But I still have to be ever vilegent!
thats good to burn dvds. i love when i hear it about guys who burn dvds. that is the best way to get rid of it so it cant come back.