I have witnessed...
Reality.
My name is Jill, I am 23 years old, and have been in the sex trade as an escort for 10 long years. I stuggle, I struggle alot, and even as I write this, I cannot help but weap, for myself, and for all of the broken people who participate in the search for the missing and shattered peices of there souls.
I admit to having over 10,000 sexual partners over the course of 10 years. I remember each and everyone of those "clients". The sex trade has been terrible but I have one thing that I always hold on too.
SOMEBODY HAS TO WITNESS
Someone has to see and feel the sorrow of the world. As a sex trade worker I have encountered the most lost and diviant people in the utmost personal way.I Saw the emptyness of mankind for myself.
Men so lost and longing for affection, not sexual gradification.
Women so hurt that they trade there bodies for attention, not monetary or materials.
And I saw it. And I believe if only for a few moments, that I in some way or another,I touched, helped and changed all 10,000 of my "clients" lives. Even if they defiled me.
"I have witnessed the world seek god, in there journey out of personal hell."
-Jill M.
A.K.A Miss Cherry Love
Ramblings of a crazy prostitute.
Comments
Hi, Jill;
Welcome to the forums, and thank you so much for sharing your story and pouring your heart out as you have.
I must agree with everything that Jan has said. Please know that we do not say these things to condemn you, or to judge you in any way, but because we care about you, and want to see you set free.
When I was in the porn industry, I told myself pretty much the same pack of lies -- that by making porn, I was helping people by bringing them in touch with their sexuality. I didn't believe it for a minute, but I continually tried to convince myself. It was all a pack of lies, though. All I was really doing was degrading myself and contributing to the bondage of addiction of those who watched me. I was not contributing anything positive to society, and certainly not to those who bought my videos.
You say that somebody has to witness. My friend, Christ has already done that. Because of that, we can be witnesses to restoration and healing, rather than degradation and evil. Wouldn't you rather be a witness to that? This is what Christ offers us -- restoration and healing. Christ gave His body to be crucified on your behalf, so that you wouldn't have to give your own body away like this.
If you truly are concerned about the welfare of your clients, and truly want to help them, then you need to come out of this lifestyle, because what you are doing is not helping them. You may be giving them some temporary thrill, but in the long run, you are simply contributing to their sad condition.
Christ loves you!! He gave His life for you so that you wouldn't have to live this way. You say that the sex industry is hard. I would agree....and it's not going to get any easier. Please, if you don't want to listen to us, then listen to God. He loves you more than you could possibly imagine. He beckons you to come to Him, that you may experience true freedom and not have to be a witness to such miseries.
Christ did not come into the world to condemn you, but that through Him you might be saved (John 3:17). We don't condemn you, either, but we are concerned.
I hope that you will make the decision to embrace the love of Christ, and the blessings He has in store for you.
Be reconciled to God 2 Cor. 5:20.
Beloved Branch
Moderator/Admin
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Hi sister first I hope this email finds you well and in good health. Secondly you're being deceived! Any act that would satisfy the flesh and take away from Gods plan in your life and in others is in no way a help to mankind. Do you honestly believe that it is Gods plan that you be defiled? Do you think it is Gods plan you reach and help others by putting yourself on the chopping block of sinful lust? If you really want to help men and women then stop making excuses for your sin and for their sin. Seek God out and what HE really has for your life and use your story to reach these people in the darkest places and show them Gods light, love and salvation. Use your past to set people free from bondage. My dear sister, God has something so much better in store for your life than what the devil would have you believe.
You said that someone has to see and feel the sorrow of this world, but beloved God already has seen and dealt with it accordingly. God sent HIS only son to die so that we wouldn't have to be bound by the hurt and suffering of this world. Jesus already took the sorrow and pain of our sins to the cross so that we might live free from the bondage of sin.
John 3:16
16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Proverbs 23: 27-28
27 for a prostitute is a deep pit and a wayward wife is a narrow well. 28 Like a bandit she lies in wait, and multiplies the unfaithful among men.
Proverbs 5:3–5
3 For the lips of an immoral woman drip honey and her mouth is smoother than oil; 4 But in the end she is bitter as wormwood, Sharp as a two-edged sword. 5 Her feet go down to death, her steps lay hold of hell.
Sister I pray that you stop believing the lies of the devil and let God free you from sin. I love you and am praying for you.
Jan
In order to marry a soldier you have to be one at heart.