I spent 3 years in the adult entertainment industry. I got into the business because I was broke...jobless and was soon to be homeless. I saw an ad on a website "Edited by Admin" for a well known nyc bbw porn site..and things went downhill from there. I've lost so much while in adult entertaiment: some of my friends, my dignity, a normal life, a potential husband...

i've been assaulted and taken advantage of. The last straw was when I went to escort in Virginia...I made no money and when I finally broke away...my former "friends" accused me of betraying them and treatig me like a pariah. The girl I was staying with just before I left VA tried to get me commited to a mental institution because she thought I was "retarded" and needed tobe on drugs. I was having an emotional breakdown and was unable to function normally...and it had nothing to do with being mentally challenged. I was homesick, tired of being broke and depending on others who didn't care about the real me. "Edited by Admin"

In order to get home, I had to sell my laptop and borrow money from a friend in Richmond to get back to NY. If it wasn't for my former roommate/landlord, I'd still be homeless and in even worse condition mentally. Ironically since I got home, my "friends" have been texting me, asking me how I was doing. I told them I was doing well and never answered them back.

I've been home since July 15th, 2009...and I'm glad to be back. I'm blogging, writing a novel and finally getting my life together. I have no desire to return to porn or escorting. I want to have nothing to do with adult entertainment anymore. Enough is enough.

I don't know how I'll pay the bills...but I won't worry about that. I know that as long as I have God and supportive friends on my side, everything will be okay.