Hi, mom3;

I know its hard, but continue praying for him, and know that every single one of your prayers are being heard by the Lord. I know that sometimes it seems like they are falling on deaf ears, but I just want to assure you that God is hearing and honoring every single one of your prayers.

I know that last time you had talked about moving forward. How are things going with that?! It sounds to me like your husband is in a very dark place right now. I really want to encourage you, if you haven't already, to seek out good Christian friendship. I cannot emphasize enough how important this is for you right now, especially if your husband is in such a dark place. In turn, he is putting you in a dark place. The Lord certainly has His hedge of protection over you, but even so, you need the encouragement and support of good Christian friendships.

Completely immerse yourself in the Christian lifestyle -- God's word and attending church as much and as often as you can. This is the only thing that will dispell the cloud of darkness that has come over you and your household. I want to encourage you to read 1 John. Praying that God's light and love floods your spirit and your household, and that God's light will break through the darkness that porn has brought into your situation.

Remember -- however strong the enemy's influence may seem over your husband, God is MUCH MUCH stronger. Satan has NOTHING on Him. You are His child, and He will nurture and protect you. Praying that His grace and joy floods your mind and heart, and that He continues to convict your husband. A lot of times what we may see as hostility and disagreeableness is actually a reaction to the Holy Spirit's work in a person's life -- especially if that person has a Christian influence in his/her life.

2 Cor. 2:14-16 Now thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and through us diffuses the fragrance of His knowledge in every place. For we are to God the fragrance of Christ among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing. To the one we are the aroma of death leading to death, and to the other the aroma of life leading to life

Just know that right now your husband is in darkness, but you are in the light. God is manifesting His light to your husband through your witness. You MUST continue to seek the Lord for your strength...You cannot do this in your own strength. In your prayers, also ask the Lord to strengthen you, and to hold you up. Most of all, know that He is always by your side, and you are NOT alone.

If you ever want to talk, I am just a PM away. Love you, and am praying for you. Be encouraged, and whatever the Lord leads you to do, have the boldness and courage to go forward. He wants to repair your marriage, but also know that He does not want you to live in sadness and confusion.

God bless you. Be encouraged and stay strong in the Lord.

Hugs
April

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