tough time right now.. here's my story
hello everyone, I have been addicted to this porn nonsense for nearly a decade. I was exposed to this during middle year, through my classmates. As the years gone by, it has gradually gotten worse. It started from looking at pics, then clips, then full length. Things took a turn for the worse when I started self-gratifying myself. I was 16 when I started doing that, and it hasn't stopped. The longest I have refrained from everything altogether was for about a month, no more than that and when I slip, I can barely make a week.
It is said that masturbation is healthy and essential, according to doctors. But it just messes people up in the head, giving them a craving for more while remaining unsatisfied.
Right now, I just slipped after 3 days.... I believe it has affected me in other ways such as mood swings, headaches, and fatigue. I heard that can happen too. Like many on this website, I'm sick and tired and I need help.
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Hey man, praise God you are here! Keep up the fight.
Thanks :)
How long have you been doing it?
Well, I was exposed to porn pretty young by neighbors and I had few posters/movies in middle school and high school. Then I got high speed internet in college. I came back to faith about a year after college, and it was a slow set of baby steps up until recently. I haven't really been fighting with a long term realization or mentality for more than a month I suppose. I had sought counseling and accountability for the past year or so, but it has only been pretty recently that I've taken active steps to kill this.
I hear you, it's a tough thing. Accountability is something that I am still looking for. I'm also doing stuff recently as well. Such as put away my itouch bc I have wifi in the area giving me free internet access. It was easier than the computer bc I live w. my family and they all use it. so yeah, I hate how after a while without porn, you feel alright but somehow you slip again and it's back to square one.