Hi Zackery, You are not alone in your struggles. I am also a christian who has been trying to give up gay porn and porn in general. Regarding what your mom said, i guess we are all sick because of sin, and sexual sin/ lust is no worse than pride, drunkeness and all the other sins. The problem is that the internet has made porn more powerful than it has ever been before. Do you think God is not aware of this? I'm sure he is and is full of compassion for us in this day and age. A lot of information on this site is very helpful. Someone who replied to an earlier post of mine sent me a link to Sexual Detox by Tim Challies which i found extremely good and encouraging. Some excellent books are The Porn Trap by Wendy Maltz, Wired for Intimacy: How pornography hijacks the male brain by William M. struthers and Everyman's Battle by Stephen Arterburn and Fred Stoeker. I hope and i will pray that you will decide to get serious about the fight before it's too late, and get hold of anything you can that will help, books like the ones i've mentioned, websites and also if possible speak to a pastor or older and experienced christian man about this problem. And of course pray and fill your mind and spirit with the word of God. Don't feel too ashamed to be completely open and honest before God because He is waiting to take away the guilt and shame and condemnation and put you on the path of day to day healing and renewal.

Hi Zachery,
I hear you on the shame side.  Been there.  While I do not understand the gay porn side, my advice to you would be to get rid of EVERYTHING to do with porn.  That is the only way I have found clears my conscience.  Your flesh may tell you not to (mine definately has) but it is the only way I have been able to get back to God. What the porn sites don't tell us is how to deal with the guilt and shame. My opinion on that, for what it's worth is that perhaps only Christians have those feelings, that they are the Holy Spirit's way of calling us back to Him. I was at a church meeting last night where leadership said do not ignore the prompting of our conscience.
On the "no turning back" issue, -> 1Cor10:13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that you may be able to bear it.
 
Blessings