I completely understand where you're coming from and have asked the same questions. Your recovery will be difficult and you will be constantly tested. But think about where you're coming from. I know that I'm not perfect and I expect to have some lapses. A lapse doesn't mean you've lost the war, just that one skirmish. You'll win the next one. Learn from a lapse to prepare for the next temptation.

Porn (through Satan)is the toughest enemy I've ever faced. God knows, I struggle with it. But Satan is a LOSER. He will not win. We know that. Just think what's in store for us by our faith in Jesus as Savior! I've made overcoming my addiction to porn the THE MAJOR ISSUE in my life. Nothing is more important to me right now. I've been so into porn for so long, it's no wonder my thoughts and beliefs about sex and women are so screwed up. For me, it's going to take a lot of time and faith in Jesus to overcome porn, but I will overcome, because God is with me on this journey.

You know you have to start by making your addiction to porn (through Satan) your greatest enemy. No more porn, no porn magazines, no porn dvds, no porn cds, no web (go to the library for that),no youtube or other video sharing site, no "softcore" mens magazines, no porn bookstores, no porn video rental place, no porn objects, no porn radio, no porn whatever. Remove all it from your house. If somebody brings it over, make them throw it away in a dumpster or burn it. If they don't want to, tell them to leave.

JUST START BY LIVING EACH DAY WITHOUT ANY PORN. It can be today or tomorrow.

I know I'm stating the obvious here but it's true. Please forgive me if I'm being stupid or a jerk in this post. I'm new to forum stuff. I'm probably going on about things you already know about. I'm sorry.

Brother Pixler, I've found that my church brothers and sisters are very supportive of me. Accept their help and love. I've been open about this, they know and I'm glad they know. Co-workers, too. They want to help me and I'm going to use them. I've found that honesty and openess helps me, no more secrets and lying to people. What a surprise! Go to church, go to church, go to church! Pray, pray, pray! STAY BUSY.

Brother, just keep trying. God knows you're fighting this addiction. He loves you. If you fall down, get back up. That's a measure of a man, not perfection.

I hope I've made sense. I'll be praying for you. God bless you, Kevin

I Romans 3:23-24