Howdy All,

This is a blog I put on my mychurch page.

God Bless You,

Jess

Jesus and Monsters

I had a conversation with God recently I wanted to share.

As a believer who struggles with sexual addiction (specifically internet porn), I also struggle with self image a lot. The biggest struggle with my self image is I tend to see myself as some sort of monster because of my addiction. I've been through some things recently that reinforced this. Some sisters in Christ I met on a Christian dating site seemed to be seeing me that way as well.

I was pretty depressed about this. I don't know what prompted me to question God about this, but I ask Jesus, "Do you think I'm a monster?"

In my heart, I heard God's still, small voice saying "I love monsters!" I didn't get the sense He was saying I was a monster. He was using how I looked at myself to reconnect with me, and to remind me the priority is His love for me.

I love that about God. He just side stepped the issue entirely to let me know He loves me. As I'm typing this, I just remembered I asked Him to go out of His way to reassure me of His love for me.

Does God see me as a monster? I think there are two answers to that:
From God's perspective, no one is a monster in Jesus.
From our perspective, if one of us is a monster, we all are.

I'm very grateful God is leading me to get rid of my Monster Vision.