How Porn Destroys YOUR Conscience
I am 24 years old now. I will share my story of my porn addiction and how I overcame it, so it may help others.
Porn is just like a drug. It starts very mild and seemingly innocent, then it eventually turns sadistic and so immoral that it messes up your mind.
It started when I was about 13, a friend at school gave me some sex/centerfold mag magazines. You might think "Big deal, it's just sex/centerfold mag right?" Eventually it turned into watching those fake porn movies that they show on those cable movie channels late at night. "Big deal right?" I remember when I was 14, I used to stay up all night just to watch that stuff and would worry that someone would wake up and catch me. Eventually I began to watch REAL sex scenes. After a while when I was over 18, a friend took me to a strip club and we went to a porn shop next door. My friend already had a hardcore porn addiction, I didn't yet, until it started that night.
I bought two of my first REAL hardcore porn movies in that store. Brought them home and was a little uncomfortable with what I saw for the first time.
Watching REAL sex scenes and men defiling girls was something sickening to me at first. After a lot of exposure, it wasn't long at all before I got used to it. Eventually, you find that it actually arouses you to pretend you were the guy with the girl in that porno and the girls APPEARED to be enjoying it, so I thought "What harm is this really doing? Besides, lots of guys watch this stuff."
It wasn't long before I found myself bored with those movies and decided to go to another porn shop to get new ones. In just a matter of months I had quite a HUGE porn collection. What I discovered is (just like a drug) you end up being less satisfied. You have to watch even raunchier and more hardcore stuff to get the same level of excitement you had before. Most porn movies add things in that you find a little gross at first but eventually get used to and eventually you get turned on by it. (Edited by admin) The first times you see it you find it wierd and skip past it. Eventually you get used to it and then you start to get aroused by it.
It starts with soft porn and becomes HARDCORE porn. (Edited by admin)
Internet porn is even worse than buying dvd's in a porn store because on the WEB it's so much more easily accessible.
This is sort of what happened to me over the 4 years that I was addicted to porn. I eventually started thinking "What's next?" "What am I going to end up watching eventually?" Bondage? Violent porn? I started having some pretty sick fantasies and my conscience was getting seared. I knew I needed to stop. I would pray for God to help me and it turned into a spiritual battle. I would throw the porn away, but in a few weeks I would lose the battle and indulge again. It went back and forth like this for a while until I kept on praying for Jesus to give me a clean heart, a clean mind with new desires.
I prayed that I could hate that sin as much as he does.
Little by little, my mind began to be healed. I am now close to the clean mind I had before I ever watched that stuff and the temptation became so small that it was so easy to overcome. I havent even watched a porno since last year.
The only thing close to raunchy on my computer is when some sick advertisement is displayed on my browser by MISTAKE and I remove it right away. The porn industry is evil and needs to be shut down completely. It is just like any drug that people get addicted to, maybe even worse.
About two years ago I found Shelly's myspace page and I remember getting some great advice from her, to pray every time the temptation enters my mind. As a man, there will always be a temptation. Every time you turn on T.V or look at a magazine cover, you see scantily clad women. It's as if the media is begging you to indulge in lust. I found that the only way to block the temptation is Jesus. Pray that he will give you a new heart, a new mind. Admit that porn is filth, that it destroys lives. Not only does it screw up the mind of the viewer, but promotes women to be treated like sex objects. Pray for Jesus to block that temptation from you. Trust in him. Trust that he will help you and if you TRULY want it gone, he can heal you.
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That testimony ROCKS! I totally understand that it can corrupt a persons mind beyond anything imaginable. Mind altering drugs can do just as bad a adult entertainment films do. I don't see how in the world they even pass it of as "entertainment". If you want entertainment go to a football game, listen to some good music, talk on the phone to friends, and play something on Wii or other system platform game system.
One valuable thing you do have is prayer to talk to the Lord. That's one of the ways I found what God had for me was just slowly talking to him again. Eventually he broke me of what I thought I need to focus me on him. Always remember God is good and will get you through the storm.
Someone once described the contrast between a good life and a godly life as the difference between the top of the ocean and the bottom. On top, sometimes it's like glass - serene and calm - and other times it raging and stormy. But hundreds of fathoms below, it is beautiful and consistent, always calm, always peaceful.
Which life are you living? A good life (on the top of the ocean), or a godly life (hundreds of fathoms below - calm and peaceful). This life I'm asking about is deep within your soul...it is the very essence of who you are. It is the place where you are God's and He is yours. Each of us have storms which rage against us and cause us to have turbulent times, but those who are living a godly life are rooted in the consistent and peaceful arms of Christ who holds us above the harsh moment and allows us to catch our breath and then move forward.
We're all here to help catch that breath and move forward.
God Bless.
How to overcome porn. We all have our own ways to overcoming. First and most importantly is having the love of Jesus Christ in your heart.
Now lets get real...and yes, Jesus Christ is real. His presence is so strong as if he is standing right beside you...and you know what? He is! You feel it, don't deny it! Embrace it!
Now I'm going to get real. Several years ago sitting in Sunday school, one of my friends brought up that he too had a hard time dealing with porn. Not that he read it or looked at it, but he worked in a papermill where they recycled. So it was all over the floor for processing. My teacher asked this question; "If I told you not to think of a bikini-clad woman, you'd think of the bikini-girl." "If I told you not to think of chocolate cake, you would think of chocolate cake." Now being the class clown, I said, "Wait a minute, I'm still thinking of the girl." We all laughted, but we knew that was true.
You see, even when the 'horned dude' below (I don't give him the satisfaction of calling his name) says not to think about porn, we do. The thought of the bikini girl was lust even for a minute...the chocolate cake was...well, sweet.
Idle time is the 'horned dude's' playground. Corny but true.
Take your mind away from it. Don't fight yourself and then condemn yourself because you feel you lost the battle. You didn't. YOU are stronger than any smut on the market. It's call lust.
Now if it's LUST you are having a problem with, pray for a cleansing of your mind, not just your heart. It's all in your head if you think about it. Your heart is in the right place but it's the thoughts you're having a problem with. Even at 24, you can overcome lust.
Women are to be respected. Whether it's your best friends girlfriend or the beauty in an advertisement, give them both the same respect.
God made woman to be the most beautiful creature in a man's eyes. So respect her.
Try this. You open up your favorite car magazine that has bikini girls standing next to a car or laying across the hood, say this to yourself; "She'an attractive woman." Now turn the page. Admire her for the beauty God gave her, not throw her into a visual porn film. Oh look, Pirelli has tires on sale...
Do you know what the most beautiful part of a woman is? Her heart.
Do you know what the most beautiful part of you is? Your heart.
God Bless. We here at The Pink Cross, are here for you. May God swing that door wide open for you to see clearly and effortlessly.
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hey god bless my names elias and a couple of months ago i started to go to church, but i too am a porn addict and i could only go a week without falling i desperately need the help man this stuff is destroying me
I agree that porn distorts the mind and our way of thinking. For about a year or two, I viewed certain women in a negative perspective because the porn polluted my mind. It was hard changing back before I had this mindset. This may or may not make sense, but I let God help me and fortunately my view on certain woman was not negative any longer.
Yeah there is hope for the person bound to porn. For people who have been in it long enough to see the searing effects on the heart, and the hardness of the heart, it's refreshing and freeing to know that through Christ, once we are free from this horrible sin, our hearts can be healed and be made tender again, and our conscience restored to newness. Praise Jesus.