Heres my story
I was introduced to porn when I was about 12 years old. I was babysitting a neighbors kids. I found a penthouse magazine in there closet. Thats how my porn addition began. I started masturbating all through my teen years. I was baptized when I was around 13 and became a born again christian. I was disabled and walking on crutches at the time. You all may think im crazy but im not. I was sitting in the living room mwatching tv and heard a voice call my name. I believe it was the voice of the holy spirit. I didnt answer the holy spirits voice because I didnt know who it was. As I got older I started renting X rated adult movies. I was sitting in my bedroom one night and heard the holy spirits voice again. Again I didnt answer the voice right because I thought it was a neighbor outside my window. I believe the holy spirit was trying to warn me that the devil was about to attack me. As I went to be I started masturbating and had very bad perverted impure thoughts. Today im in a wheelchair. My legs are very stiff and I can hardly move them. I cant even sleep at night. I have to take sleeping pills so I can sleep at night Porn has destroyed my life. I am fearful that the holy spirit has left me and I have lost my salvation. I have been reading the bible alot. I try to read it every morning and every night. Please I need serious prayer.
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Hey man welcome to the forums. Its great that you want to stop viewing porn
Porn is often started at a young age and its great that you see it as a negative thing.
I would encourage you to take a look around this website and look at the resources and browse the forums theres a load of information that will help you.
Its great that you recognised the holy spirit speak to you and you made a commitment to God. God loves you and to answer the question about being fearful that you have lost your salvation I would say that NO you haven’t lost your salvation. The bible says that Nothing can separate us from the Love Of God.
Romans 8:38-39
38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Nothing not even porn. Porn addiction will mess you up and you will have a hard time with it and everything that goes with it if you make good choices to live with out porn then life will be easier and better. Jesus says he will give life and life in all its fullness the life that Jesus has is way better than living with porn John 10 “I have come that they may have life in all it's fullness. I would encourage you to ask the holy spirit to come into your life and help you with your struggles. You are not alone and the holy spirit can help you to quit porn as you move forward and decide to make better choices for your life and as you choose to live a life free without porn. Go for it keep seeking God and ask him to give you a pure heart.
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