Hello, girlintrouble;

First of all, I want to welcome you to the boards. I am glad that you finally decided to start posting. I am so sorry for what you are going through.

Sarah is absolutely right. Jesus Christ is the only one who can heal our deepest pain. The Bible says that when we call on Him, He hears us. I can relate to much of what you are saying. I know that void very well. I lived with one for many years, even when I was very young. Having no dad created a huge void in me. Back before I knew Jesus, I would try to fill it with the wrong kinds of things....drugs were my way of filling the void. I somehow learned to ignore the void, but ignoring it never took it away, and it eventually consumed me. Even so, Jesus broke through, and I know that He has filled the void. I think you will be able to relate to me when I say -- the only thing that can really fill that void is love...deep, huge love...and that is where God comes in. He is the only one who will ever be able to fill that void.

Girlintrouble -- You are NOT worthless. You are precious in God's eyes, and His love for you is HUGE. Don't even believe the lie that you are worthless, because you are not. Christ shed His blood for you, and you are priceless to Him. You are worth more than you know, and it breaks His heart that you are feeling this way. Satan wants you to remain discouraged, but this is not what God wants for you. He wants to heal you and restore you.

The guys who tell you that they are proving their love for you by having sex are lying to you in the worst way. They do not love you. On the contrary -- the fact that they would even try to manipulate you into having sex with them like that proves that they do not care about you at all. They are not motivated by love, but just want to take advantage of you, so please do not give up something as precious as your sexuality to someone like that. You are worth so much more than that, not only in our eyes, but in God's eyes as well. He loves you so much, and wants to fill that void inside you.

Rather than using things like men and porn to fill the emptiness, cry out to God. Have you ever really poured out your heart in prayer to Him? Tell Him what is going on, and ask Him to fill that void. Start to fill your mind and heart with His word. Really, really seek Him. The Bible says that when we draw near to God, He will draw near to us...and when He draws near to us, I'm telling you, He fills that void and makes us feel so precious and loved.

You are precious to God, and He wants to love you.

Jer. 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope

Is. 32:18 My people will dwell in a peaceful habitation. In secure dwellings, and in quiet resting places

Please continue to post and let us know how you are doing. Also, please post in the prayer requests forum, so that we can continue to pray for you.

Don't listen to the lies of the enemy. God loves you, and has His arms wide open, ready to receive you.

Beloved Branch
Moderator
Pink Cross Forums

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Ps. 108:13 Through God we shall do valiantly, for it is He who shall tread down our enemies

The very best I can do for you, is the following, which is for you to call out to Jesus. He will answer. Many of us here have been down the same path and I am sure that others including myself would be happy to walk with you, but you also (I hope) will understand that what it is going to take, even if a bunch of people listen with you for hours or days, is for you to personally reach out to Jesus. You don't have to be poetic or have to say anything except call out to Him and ask Him to come to you and help you and that you want Him in your life.

It is a heart thing and not about exact words that you use. I don't say any of this lightly, but am saying this because I really do understand and care. We each of us have had to go the same way, just as you are and invite Him in. This really is the best advice I could ever give anyone.

Feel free to write or contact me, but will tell you the same thing either way. If your sick of things the way they are and if you want help, only Jesus can help you put life back together.

Sarah

God does have a plan for everyone and everyone is called to be a part of ministry somewhere. All jobs in ministry are important as it is designed by God to be a servant and save lives. God gave us so much, but how much do we give Him in return?