You will overcome this problem. You may get online psychological help from committed christian psychologists through (edited by moderator).

Well hello pudnanewell1986,

I just had to give you a warm welcome as well, girl! From one born again Christian to another! I can tell you, it is going to be a struggle but hey, I wouldn't be here to tell you this if I didn't trust in God's word AND if I didn't guarantee a happy ending at the end of this story... and this is coming from someone who thought God was a joke and now... He's made Himself so known in my life that I can never doubt him or be too thankful for everything He has given me... A great purpose to share with you and the whole world!

As far as the advice from everyone here... THEY'RE ALL 100% absolutely RIGHT!! Honestly, I never even read the Bible until Shelley sent me one... until after I almost lost my relationship because I was stuck in that "in between place" and reality after leaving the porn industry. I've even gone so far as to having it downloaded onto my Blackberry. So when I'm tempted, I turn to read... even on the go!

I just started to read from front to back... and funny enough... the more I read, the more my life comes together. I'm learning to stay humble, patience, love, and strength. All these things matter when temptation come in the way. God's word has become so evident in my life that recently I've been able to pass down my love of Jesus to my Jewish mother...which I feel is now becoming a Messianic Jew for Jesus.

Girl, God loves you... more than you know and just know that now that you've come here and asked for help... you're already becoming a better person. Ask and you shall receive. ;)

You're not alone in this...and if you ever have any questions... feel free to message me.

Welcome home, sister!

Lots of Love,
Tammie <3

Dear Seeker of Truth

Now you have enough suggestions to fight the battle. Psychologists are available for online counseling at
"edited by moderator" you can try mailing them

Dear Pudnanewell1986--
But don't believe it. Even if it wasn't for all the people who post in this forum needing help for a porn addiction who are women, the bible tells us that we are not tempted with anything that isn't common.....
To me, it is an encouraging thing not to be the only one struggling with something. ;)
I found that the biggest area and easiest time to fall is that split second between when you are tempted and what you do right then....
Have a plan, when the urge comes, you need to replace that urge with something else. The bible tells us to take off the old self and put on the new right? (in Ephesians)
So if the old urge was to look at porn, you need a replacement action. Find something honoring to God....I suggest praise musics and worship, it is hard to worship God and look at porn at the same time....and with time the urges will stop. Satan will not tempt you because the last thing he wants is for you to praise God.
Try this for awhile and see if that helps.

And you know you should read your bible....that would help you so much, so I am just going to encourage you to spend a few minutes each day reading the Word. If you do a google search for daily bible reading, you can find an audio link and set your computer t go there first and listen to the Word while you drink coffee....and it will be come a habit and bless you greatly

I am so glad you are here and posting! We love you and want to see you have victory, because once you are free, you will be able to help other women get that victory!

Blessings and love,
Carolemarie

Carolemarie
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Dear pudnanewell,

Thank you for sharing your heart. You are not alone and you will get through this. :)

After eight years of struggle with pornagraphy as a believer and follower of Christ, I realized that I was so eager to surrender other areas of my life, accept this particular one. It was a safe haven for me. I see the twisting of truth now. You have to understand that even the strongest believer is suspectible. Brokenness and even making mistakes is no respector of persons. Yet the Lord invites us to share even this secret part of our lives, not to shame us, but to free us up to experience adventures with Him as restored people.

Evidence of healing began taking place when I noticed that I would begin to cry or feel sick after viewing pornography-this was after seven years of viewing. I hadn't had anything kind of reaction like that in the years prior. At the height of my struggle I would view pornagraphy for hours on end experiencing a "high". At my worst point and deepest brokenness, I was viewing porn all night and would not be able to go to bed until around 5 am in the morning. I knew something was drastically wrong when I viewed a rape scene. I remember imagining I was the woman being raped. I even said to myself, "I am this woman." Can you see how broken I was? Oh how the Lord must have cried and grieved over this time of my life.

As I began to directly face the hurts and disappointments of my life with Christ, I began to notice how much I was "checking out" of real life. Isolation kept me locked up in this state. When I hear the loneliness in people's posts, I understand....

At my lowest point-I began reaching out, friends came into my life and began speaking truth over me-though I did not fully accept it right away, but I began writing down bits of the truth they shared with me. Eventually I began spending more one-on-one time with the Lord. Sometimes all I could do was just sit and cry with Him-that was the best start. I realized that the more conversations I had with the Lord, and took time, even if it was to just go out and walk in nature with Him, the less time I viewed porn. That in itself, for me, was a HUGE victory. I also began helping other people out as I was in the process of walking out, which motivated and encouraged me.

One very precious image that came to mind when I would spend time with the Lord really began waking me up to how He saw me during the times of my struggle. It was not even directly related to porn. The image was of a woman who had been doing meth. She was completely physically and emotionally destroyed. All her teeth were gone and she has lesions all over her face. Then immediately I saw a superimposed image on top of her face, one of which she was fully restored and not only restored, but with an authority in her eyes and a strength in her smile so contrary to the 1st image. The Lord layed on my heart that not only does He see our most broken selves, but He also sees what we can look like fully restored. When God pairs us with Jesus, that is what He sees. I can say with steadiness that it is God's love that makes us conquer.

As more time went by, I realized that pornagraphy could not fulfill the renewal and satisfaction I was encountering with Jesus. I began viewing pornagraphy less and less. This took a long time. The analogy I would give is that Jesus began pouring in His love because I had finally said, "yes, I need you to love me, and I will accept what you give-even if it comes in the form of correction. I have no other option, I am desperate." He was literally loving the destruction out of me-something that we cannot do by ourselves.

Helping others, praying effectively with group of women who know about my past, holding fast to the Lord and His Holy Spirit, singing and reading scripture, not giving up, hearing truth about the destructiveness of pornagraphy, and just sometimes crying with the Lord, has kept me moving forward.

I am so glad to have found this sight and to have read your post. What an amazing community of love, and also a community that will experience further victory...including you. He is launching us with His love. He is faithful and He will do it for His name's sake.

Praying for you....

A starting point...

Psalm 56:8 / 57:1-2
Proverbs 7:1-5
Romans 8:1-28
Galatians 5: 16-25
Ephesians 3:14-20

Hi, Pudnanewell;

Welcome to the forums!

I am so sorry that you are struggling with this. I know how shameful porn addiction can make you feel, but I just want to let you know that God does not condemn you, and neither do we.

I really think that one thing that will help you get victory is to start reading your Bible. This is so important, as the Word of God builds us up, and makes us strong:

1 Peter 2:2 As newborn babes, desire the pure milk of the word, that you may grow thereby

The Bible also equips us for spiritual battle, and porn addiction is a spiritual battle. The book of Ephesians tells s that we are to put on the full armour of God. That is really what you need right now, before anything else.

I guess my best advice would be to pray and ask God for victory over this. Tell Him that you cannot overcome this on your own, and pray that He will give you the supernatural strength to overcome it. The best way to make new habits is by allowing the Holy Spirit to transform you:

Rom. 12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God

The most practical way to do this would be to really dive into the Christian life....Bible reading, fellowship, and lots of prayer. Whenever you feel tempted to watch porn, immediately go to the Lord in prayer, or read a passage of Scripture. Do something to take your mind off of it. Ask the Lord to give you the supernatural strength to overcome it. If you give into it, don't allow the enemy to make you feel guilty....just confess it to the Lord and move forward. The worst thing we can do is wallow in guilt.

Anyhow, I guess that's the best advice I can think of. Ther are also other practical things you can do, but building yourself up spiritually is the best thing you can do to defeat this.

Please continue to post here, and we will continue to support you however we can. Also, if you need extra prayer, post it in the prayer section. We've got some faithful prayer warriors on this board.