I just wanted to start off by thanking God for leading me to this website. This is something I have needed for a very long time, and I feel like this is the first step in my healing process.
I am 23 years old and have struggled with masturbation since I was 11 years old, and I have struggled with pornography since I was 18. I can hardly remember a day that I haven't done one of those two things, and my soul literally feels sick from all this sinfulness.
My first encounter with porn happened when I was 9. My cousin and I found a stack of our uncle's Playboy magazines, and I was stunned by the photographs of the naked and semi-naked women I saw. "How can anyone take their clothes off and get their picture taken?" I thought. But something about those photos caught my eye and never left my mind. I guess that was the first time I ever felt lust (which is strange, because to this day, I have never been attracted to a real-life woman, only ones in pictures and videos). That turned into masturbation a couple of years later, and the online porn addiction started with a curious search of the word "porn" to see if it would get through my college's network filters, which it did not. 
The worst part about all of this is that nobody knows about any of this. Not my family, friends, boyfriend, fellow church members, co-workers, anybody. My mom caught me masturbating a couple of times when I was 12, which upset her, but we never talked about it again. I am so ashamed because I feel like I live a double life: one who hungers and thirsts for Jesus, yet has a relentless addiction to getting that next orgasm, with no regards for the people in the free porn videos I have watched, and sometimes no guilt for sinning against God.
I am certain that God led me here for this reason: I was reading an online devotional, and on that day (December 27) it talked about spiritual battles. My porn and masturbation addiction immediately popped up in my head, and though I'd prayed this many times before, I prayed once again for God to "help me conquer this addiction with His strength". I logged on to Facebook, and on my newsfeed I saw a link to Relevant Magazine's article about Shelley's book "The Truth About Porn" (please forgive me if this is the wrong title), which had a link to the Pink Cross. When the page loaded and I saw the picture of the girl who was tied up and crying, it broke my heart. Then God whispered to me: "You have been doing this for 12 years; you can only beat this with My strength."
So this is why I am telling all of you on this online community/forum about my struggle. I feel like I have nowhere else to turn, but I desperately want to be washed clean of this once and for all. I want to live a lust-free life that is full of passion for God, not a life that is spent mapping out the next way to get my "fix."
Sorry for the length; I just had to let it all out. God bless you all.