TD Jakes has a book called The Lady, Her Love, Her Lord it talked about in one of the Chapters about how Men feel insecure when
Ok my question is this TD Jakes Wrote a book called The Lady, Her Lover, Her Lord. It is basically a book about who a woman is and who she should be in God, What a man is to her, And how her relationship should be with God. Now in one of the chapters it talks about how men feel insecure and that when it comes to women they forget that men have insecurities because they really want things to work out but they are afraid to give their hearts to women out of fear they will crush them. I am trying to give the short end of this but everything he said is true. About how men really want to be romantic with women but they feel that if I give my heart to you will you change or hurt me.
Ok how does this relate to Porn my thing is this that well as a young kid you know how little boys are they will talk dirty you know LOL. Talk about women's body parts yes I was one of those kids but even at a young age I wanted love. So yeah you a kid you curious about how women look whatever else. So yeah I started looking at that mess in junior high school. But that was out of curiousity. I don't believe I am addicted I believe I have a connection to it. My concept of addiction is someone who can't stop something even if it means destroying themselves and everything they have my concept of a person of someone who has a connection to something is that whatever is behind it will be broken if they I guess solve that prolem. Reason being and this relates back to that book. Is that I have developed resentment, fear and hatred towards women because when you really care about them and TD Jakes said it best it is like men are scared that women will have this iron fist that will come down on that man. I started caring for this Christian Woman and I really liked her and I gave my heart to her I really wanted to marry her and treat her like a Princess of course she going to go around and play with my heart and head and break my heart. For some reason that has been my life story women know I have been hurt so they will go and hurt me. And well TD Jakes talked about that men suffer from PMS meaning Power, Money, and Sex. Meaning that men drown themselves into these things because they are scared that women will hurt them and I admit that yeah if I had a billion dollars I wouldn't give my heart out because then I could feel empowered not to want them because I hate the fact that when it comes to someone who cares for them they will hurt them. Women talk about Church Women but you got a lot of Church Women who will hurt a good man. Just because they are Christian doesn't mean they won't hurt you. So I have one lost my confidence in women, two I can't stand them because they don't care about anyone but themselves which has to be like I can't stand them, then they will play you out for someone who doesn't treat them good at all.
I have smoked trees(weed) before I had a connection meaning I smoked it to relax so when I found ways to relax I just cut it off easily. I look at Porn because I just don't have no faith that women won't kick me in the face. I even question God about why he designed them if they bring all this pain they can bring so much happiness and bring so much pain.