I'm new here
Mon, 04/20/2009 - 16:18
My name is John. I'm 30 years old. I ran away from home at the age of 16 to become an actor in NY. I don't like to talk about it. But I became involved in making movies.
I've really been struggling with porn and other things. I saw a guy on tv last night and I prayed that I believed in God. I felt a lot better. Somehow I found this site. I really hope that I can enjoy my life now. The people here seam so nice and understanding.
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John,
We are glad you are here. There are many of us that can relate with the struggle with porn. God knows I can being a former porn addict myself. Check out some of the resources and testimonies here on the website. There is a lot of stuff that I hope can help. Also feel free to ask questions here in the forums. That's what the forums are for.
I'll be praying for you,
Scott
Thank you Scott. I'm struggling to be accepted by other Christians right now. Its so hard to find an accepting and affirming Church. I went to a pagan pride festival in Ithaca NY this past weekend. There was a guy there preaching and as soon as I walked in he pointed at me and told me that I needed to repent of my sins. Now I was in full David Bowe garb at the time. But why did he judge me? And why couldn't he just show love to me like you guys do here.
Thank you Scott.
Your goal does not need to be trying to be accepted by other Christians. What is a Christian? A Christian is a broken sinner, who accepts the free gift that God offers us - the full payment of our sin by his perfect son, Jesus. We are forgiven immediately, but it takes the rest of our life to go through the junk in our lives and one at a time, and give those things over to God.
Some Christians are jerks, some are very nice. It kinda all depends on where they are in that process.
In the book of Luke, there is an exchange between Jesus and his disciples.
"Once when Jesus was praying in private and his disciples were with him, he asked them, "Who do the crowds say I am?"
They replied, "Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, that one of the prophets of long ago has come back to life."
"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?"
He asked that question almost 2000 years ago, and yet it is still the most important question in the world today. "Who do you way that I am?"
Who is Jesus to you?
What I really want to know is, was this guy right? Some of the things he said really stuck in my craw.
But I love you guys though. I know Jesus would never judge me no matter how far a I go.
Like it has been said on other posts. Jesus is my daddy in the sky.
I wasn't there, so I don't know. Even if his words were right, maybe his delivery, tact or timing wasn't.
The guy may say that you are a sinner, which you are - we all are. He may have said you need to repent, which we all do. He may have said that Jesus is the only way, which he is. He may have said that apart from the blood of Jesus you have no chance of making it to heaven which you don't. He might have said that the path you are on will only lead to hell, and that too might be true (depending on what path you really are on).
But if he was not saying it in love, like Jesus would have, then he shouldn't have done what he did. Don't let the messenger get in the way of the message though. This guy was not your judge and neither am I, but Jesus certainly is. Jesus earned the right to be our judge by dying to pay the price for our sin, and if we take what he did and throw it back at him, then he's earned the right to judge us - that's what the Bible says.
But it also says that only God knows your heart or my heart. We all see what we see on the outside, and we draw our conclusions. No matter how we dress, where we go, or who our friends are, only God knows what's going on inside you, and only you and he know where you really stand with him.
God bless.
But if he and you both say the same thing, then why did you call him a jerk? Doesn't that make you a hypocrite?
I have read some of your posts and I see that you struggle with porn yourself. That being true how can you judge me, or even help me?