Finally
Hey guys,
It's been a while. I am back and even better than before. I have made tremendous break through in therapy. My therapist and I have come to the conclusion that I have never been addicted to porn but I used it to escape and run from life.
I have recently been thinking a lot. I have always wanted to become a cop but I don't have the passion for it like I thought I did. I have a fire for acting and as silly as it might sound I am seriously thinking about getting into acting or pro wrestling. The passion I have for both especially pro wrestling out does everything else I have ever wanted to do.
I guess what i am saying is that porn is no longer something I hide from. I have faced it and I feel I have the upper hand. I will keep it that way too. It has me addressing things I should of addressed before in the past again that I never finished. My career path is one of them.
Let me know what you guys think....
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Hello Trey. I remember that you wrote in a previous post about having OCD and how it affected your viewing of pornography. I also have OCD and my therapist came to the same conclusion - that I wasn't really addicted to it, more like obsessed with it. My therapist also said the same thing about how I was using it to escape life's vicissitudes and choices. I also have a difficult time choosing a career path and I guess I have used porn to escape from, or put off making a definitive decision. I wish you the best of luck with finding your career path and with your freedom from porn. By the way, are you still thinking of writing a book about your experiences with life and OCD?
Take care,
Ian
Well, I'm not sure if I will write a book. I did recently realize something thought. Just because we aren't addicted to porn doesn't mean that the obsessiveness can't lead to an addiction.
I was sick recently and because I felt bad I looked at porn to try and feel better. I've done that before in the past and that's why I did it again. It really bothered me so I talked to my therapist about it and she warned me that I needed to watch out. Even though I'm not addicted to porn the behavior of looking at it to feel better in some way was an addictive kind of behavior which could lead to myself becoming addicted.
I'm not happy that I looked but at the same time it was a good experience because it helped me understand and shed light on what my addictive behavior is when it manifests itself from an obsessive kind of behavior.
Just thought I'd share that with you so you can learn from my mistake and not make the same one yourself.
Thank you for sharing that with me Trey. I appreciate that.
I think you're on the right path, Linkinforcer. Go for it. Just have a back-up plan, just in case. But, yeah, if you're passionate about acting and wrestling then give it your best shot. Keep trusting God. Good luck. Kevin.
Romans 3:23-24
Glad for you Linkinforcer.
Seek God's directions & follow your dreams.
In His Grip
Raj