Former Porn Star Jersey Jaxin Story

Former Porn Star Jersey Jaxin

I met Jersey Jaxin in the summer of 2007 where she shared her painful story with me. She spoke about many sad things in her life from sexual abuse from her father to the abuse she went through in the porn industry. 

She made me cry during our meeting quite a bit but especially when I asked her what she did in her off time when she wasn't doing porn and she replied, "I hold my roommate and we just cry".

That TOTALLY messed me up when I heard it. Two months later this precious woman calls me and says, "Guess what Shelley, I've left porn for good!"

It totally blew me away and I knew it was God!

She allowed me to tape our conversation and you can listen to us talk here about how she left porn and the abuse she experienced in the porn industry. I want you all to hear and know the truth from the very mouths of the women who make porn. I want you to know that there IS NO FANTASY in porn and that women suffer abuse and degradation EVERY SINGLE DAY! Tanya will definitely make sure you understand that in her interview. She is very outspoken about the evils of porn. 

She wants you to know that Jersey Jaxin is now dead and that her real name is Tanya and that it's time for Tanya to be the person that God meant her to be. She even cleaned up her myspace to show her fans and all of us that she is serious and is never going back to porn.

Please visit her myspace and leave her encouraging comments as this will really bless her and give her strength to rebuild her life. I am so thankful for all of you because God is using you powerfully to encourage and strengthen women who leave the porn industry. Just look at how well Sierra Sinn and Becca Brat and others are doing because people like YOU really care. Please pray for Tanya as she still has a very long and hard recovery ahead of her. She is facing some challenges but I know with your prayers, the Lord will see her through. Thank you for caring about women trapped in porn.

Tanya’s Story

I’m a former XXX actress and was called “one of the smallest, youngest and cutest porn stars in the business. I’m 4’11, really short and weigh in the 90’s. I’ve starred mostly in “teen” porn, which means fans liked me because I looked “barely legal”. I left porn in September, 2007.

My life can be summed up in one word: ABUSE!

The porn industry was a shock. My first two scenes I didn’t know what to do. I just stabilized and went along with what everyone else was doing. After that, I was like, throw me in I’m ready to go.
Tanya did 20 scenes in her first month.

My scenes involved extreme videos with very hard sex acts with several performers at the same time.

“I’m just tired of the industry. The way they treat you as though we are just a piece of meat. That we don’t have a mind and our body is everybody’s and we have no soul.”
Guys punching you in the face. You have semen from many guys all over your face, in your eyes. You get ripped. Your insides can come out of you. It’s never ending. You’re viewed as an object and not as a human with a spirit. People don’t care. People do drugs because they can’t deal with the way they are being treated.

Seventy five percent and rising are using drugs. Have to numb themselves. There are specific doctors in this industry that if you go in for a common cold they’ll give you Vicodin, Viagra, anything you want because all they care about is the money. You are a number. You’re bruised. You have black eyes. You’re ripped. You’re torn. You have your insides coming out. It’s not pretty and foofoo on set. You get hurt.

The main thing going around now is crystal meth, cocaine and heroin. You have to numb yourself to go on set. The more you work, the more you have to numb yourself. The more you become addicted, the more your personal life is nothing but drugs. Your whole life becomes nothing but porn.

I was a drinker. I drank a lot. Vodka was my drug. Vodka was my numbing toy. Before sets, after sets, and if it was a set where people didn’t care, they’d have it there waiting.

You may see a 45-minute set that took us 13 hours. We’re ripped, we’re tired, we’re sore, we’re bleeding, we’re cut up, we have dried semen all over our faces from numerous guys and we can’t wash it off because they want to take pictures. You have this stuff all over you and they’re telling you, “Hold it.” It is never straight flowing sex.

Four words girls can say are: Stop, Halt, Pain and Don’t. “You can say anything you want and they don’t’ listen”. There’s the ultimate thing where you squeeze their leg to ease up and most of them don’t care. They have another scene to go to. It’s all about the money. They’ve forgotten who they are and they don’t care who they are hurting.

I’m on the road right now heading to a different life. I’m going to try to make it as a normal person because I’m done. You have no soul in the porn industry. – Jersey Jaxin
 

 

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shel8777
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You go sweetheart!

If i were a billionaire I'd give 300 million to the pink cross!

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Forgive Me

Paul Moore
I spent 31 years in pornographic addiction. I viewed women as body parts. I have been free for almost 4 years. Forgive me please for the way I viewed you. I was wrong. I have no right to look at any naked woman except the wife God brings me. I want to tell you that I am proud of you for leaving the industry. I ask God to bless you financially, spiritually, emotionally, and physically. I don't know how far along you are in your healing, but I really believe in my life that the road to sin had a lot to do with my father abandoning me when I was ten. I wonder if we really have a porn issue, or a drug issue, or an alcohol issue, or is it as simple as an unhealthy father image or the lack thereof. I haven't researched this, but I think we need to cry out to Father God, and ask Him to rescue us from us. I'm sorry for taking so much of your time. God Bless You Ma'am. Paul Moore

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Hang in there

Hi Jersey. I want to encourage you to stay checked in here once and a while, and hold onto your friendships here with the ladies. None of us can live the Christian life alone. We are in battle daily. You are not in this alone! Please stay with us all..., and lhow we can pray for you more as you need it.

Allen

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