Former Porn Star Becca Brat Story
I am a former xxx actress. I got out of the business about two years ago, and totally out of the sex industry in January 2006. I grew up in a Christian home, but I never really felt accepted anywhere.
I started hanging out in the world, and got my first serious boyfriend. I lost my virginity at the age of 18, and a few months later my boyfriend broke up with me. I was crushed. I went nuts... it was the beginning of the end. I started dancing when I was 18. I was dabbling here and there with drugs- coke, ecstasy, acid, etc. I met a XXX performer who was feature dancing at the club I worked at. She introduced me to her brother and we started dating. Within 2 weeks I packed up and moved to LA.
I was nervous about being on film at first... she also worked at a legal brothel in Nevada and told me I should try working there 1st... so at the age of 19, I became a prostitute. I worked there for about 9 months and then got into XXX. Over the next 4 years, I did somewhere around 200+ movies. I also escorted all over the country as a porn star escort. Yes, porn stars are prostitues too. I got further and further into drugs and the whole lifestyle. I had a string of boyfriends, each one worse than the last.
I have been hospitalized many times- from being physically abused by men, put into rehab at least 4 times, and even put into the LA County General Hospital by the police for a mandatory psychiatric hold. I became horribly addicted to heroin and crack. I left LA and went back to the brothel in Nevada. I had to escape my boyfriend and that lifestyle. I went to an outpatient rehab- did methadone for two days and then got on some pills the doctor said I would be on for months. I took them for a day and a half and then quit cold turkey. I spent another 9 months in hell at the brothel - I was in most ways a prisoner there. I escaped by leaving everything I owned there in January and going to Vegas. I spent a few months in Vegas, then finally came home in April.
I have obviously had angels doing overtime watching out for me the whole time. I O.D.ed at least 3 times, had tricks pull knives on me, have been beaten half to death- the only reason I am still here is God.
Update:
Becca has been attending web design school at Sessions.edu where she is now working very hard to earn a Web Design Foundation Certificate. She is a single mother to a beautiful one year old daughter and is enjoying her new life.
Karly, her real name, says a big THANK YOU to all of you who cared enough to donate to her schooling. She is thankful that people didn't see her as a throw-away person and believed in her enough to reach out to her. She is also thankful to God for saving her out of the porn pit. Becca says, "Life is sweet now."
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Comments
Nobody is a throw away, everyone is precious in the eyes of God. I've been to so many places that had people in the same situations that you were in, and seeing that broke my heart. God wants us to touch the lives of others to love them with God's love and to show how much they mean to us too. Every life is precious to God, that's why I'm Pro-life and against the dealth penalty too.
God Bless You,
Nate,
God can use all things for our good to bless us and use what satan intended for evil for Good.
I just want to say as someone who was addicted to pornography for about 15 years. I am sorry. I am sure I must of gratified my urges while looking at pictures or watching movies of you and I feel awful about it.
Thankfully since I let God back into my heart and Started going back To Jesus's Church I haven't watched a porn movie or looked at a porn magazine or a visual porn website. I still have the urges and when I fall, I read stories. So when I sin, the only one I am hurting is myself, and not the true victim of porn, the women.
Porn skews the view of human sexuality, A gift from God to be shared with the love of our life. I am so glad that you are out and doing well
God Bless
Max
YOU WILL DO...ALLRIGHT!!! MAY GOD BLESS YOU
You are a very beautiful woman. I am so proud of you. Sometimes it's hard to find love isn't it? I became a Christian in 1984 and spent over 20 years of that time in porn addiction. I have been free for six years. God truly is so good. Want to know something? He really does love us. I found out just recently that we have to develop a love for Him, then out of that love for Him we start to love ourselves and out of that love for ourselves we learn to love others. I have heard people say you can't love G-d until you love yourself. Well, how can a person show love if they have never experienced it? How can we show love when all we know are lies and manipulation.
The bible says that G-d is love. He is the source of love. Love comes from Him and it washes us clean, as it says in His word, 'love covers a multitude of sin'.
Wishing you Jesus love and total protection on both you and your little one. Words of encouragement for you two... Psalm 4 :11-12
Aloha from Kona Hawaii,
Glen Dohie www.photographybyglen.com
Karly,
Thank you so much for posting your story. I imagine it could not be easy for you. As a recovering porn addict, it's really helpful to have all the testimonies to read from former porn stars about what the porn industry is really like and the toll it takes on the women in it.
One thing that's helpful about your story in particular is that it conveys the negative impact porn can have on even the women who don't get into extreme porn involving anal, violence, and degradation. I've seen some of the scenes you were in and I remember them being pretty straightforward boy-girl or girl-girl scenes.
Thank you again so much for posting your testimony. It really helps. I wish you only the best in your recovery from doing porn. May life give you only the best.
Sincerely,
An Internet Porn Addict
tears tears tears and only tears when listen to such painful stories happeneing around us
Thanx God u out of it sister,God bless u with new good husband and grow ur kid obedient to God and family and be a Pious person
That is so great to hear you are doing well. Your story is an inspiration to me and am sure many others.
Thank you for the tremendous good you are doing.
Karly,
You are a real person. You have a real name and a real body and a real life.
The sex industry treats you as though the only difference between you and a sex toy is the fact that you have a brain and a mouth and can negotiate your fee for sexual services.
Please remember that until you sue the proverbial pants off the pornographers who pimped you out, your videos will still be featured on internet porn sites. They never go away, even though God has forgiven you of all that sin.
Flesh peddlers get extremely wealthy off their trade in garbage. Remember, Karly, God does not make garbage and God is not in the refuse business. He hauls off the trash and burns it in the sea of forgetfulness.
I wish I could donate to your cause. Unfortunately, I cannot. What I can do is encourage you to pursue a life that leads TO life. It may not pay as well as the sex industry has, but remember, others have come out of the porn industry and so have you. Even Kristara Barrington is reported to be a practicing veterinarian in California. Ex-porn stars DO have lives and can learn life skills and practice well-paying professions that benefit themselves and other people.
God love you,
Richard C. August