Where to start. I have been an addict to pornography for a very long part of my life now. I have accepted Jesus Christ into my life in 2005. I still have many struggles with what entertains me the most and that is pornography. It is very hard to admit this weird behavior but I have had a huge fetish for pantyhose for years and years. I don't know why but for some reason the draw of this leads me to temptations uncontrollalbe for me to feed the need to search for fulfillment in the imagination world I can create of being with women that claim to "love wearing them" or more. I still fantasize about former friends and aquaintances that I was extremely attracted to. I have gone so far as to participate in wearing them for comfort/pleasure and have kicked-fell back-kicked that sinful habbit. I have deleted any and all materials from my computer. My biggest problem is my mind. When I sit at the computer, the enemies voice begins to speak and lead me to where I know it it definitely wrong to go. Pornography for me does not have to be the magazines or the main adult films for me but the free pics on search engines that are hotlinked and paysite previews of women that I find very attractive. I pray that God will still cleanse my mind and my heart to stop this recurring evil that I still carry inside. I read the testimonies of former stars that are now free and am ashamed that I too have lusted after the young lady Erica Campbell and her former works in this area. Please forgive me. I am involved in church ministries and have admitted my pornography problem to a couple of prayer partners though not going into detail like this. I don't want to stand in front of Jesus Christ and have to explain why I did this and have no secure feeling that I am truly forgiven for what I have done. I am married with two twin boys and a young daughter. I find it difficult to relate to my wife sexually as I always desire her to be what I see in my mind. I realize that Jesus spoke of lusting in the heart but I for some reason can not stop this sin as my mind is so entertained by what I see in my own so called "happy place". Please keep me in prayer for the release of my mind to overcome my sinful pleasures.

Well you made the right choice by coming to this site. Read the stories. Keep on sharing. You can meet some awesome folks thru here who walk with god and can help you and your inner demons.

I just want to encourage you that porn and all of it's tentacles can be VERY EASILY broken. The fact of the matter rests with Yeshua's (Jesus) words about two masters. We cannot have two masters, we will either love one and hate the other or we will be devoted to one and despise the other. We cannot serve G-d and drugs, alcohol, porn, or any other addiction or negative behaviour. If you want lasting happiness and a joy-filled life CLICK HERE to go to my site. I offer a free course entitled the Your Guide to a Happy Life workbook. You owe it to yourself to check it out. G-d Bless you. Paul Moore. Host and moderator, Your Guide to a Happy Life Discipleship.

Thank you very much Shelley, Mel and April for the time you all have put in to making my life worth living and trying to better myself! Your support, books, bibles, cards, video etc has been such an inspiration for me to finally start to get my story together and share it with the pink cross organization. You all make me feel so loved, wanted and needed! I love you all very much and thank you again for all your kindness!
Melissa-former porn star/exotic dancer, Alexa Milano
WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!!

I had always thought there was something wrong with me for not being able to cope in the sex industry. I searched for years for answers, and found Shelleys' site. It finally made sense: It wasn't me it's the industry. It is not just a coincidence that we all have the stories just like Shelleys'. Thank you Shelley for showing me the way out through Jesus, For me there is no other way!

I am 19, and throughout Highschool I never really had much faith. My family attended church every now and then when I was younger but all I looked forward to was going out to eat after church. It was only a little while ago that I noticed a lot of things on the Internet about bible prophecies and the last days and I was intrigued. In High school I guess I would say I was even an atheist because I was always looking for ways to prove the Bible contradicted itself, and a teacher cought me on the spot and said try reading. It was funny because I did not ever read one line of scripture seriously. I started with the book of Revelations because I thought some of the bible prophecies were intriguing and seemed foolishly insane like an acid trip. I read and read and couldn't make sense of any of it. I also started reading some of the Gospels. I was reading it from a destructive point of view so I could not see the light. It made me physically and mentally sick until finally I gave up and I genuinely prayed for wisdom. Not double mindedly but I prayed in humility and desperation for answers. Then The Lord God gave me a horrifying memory of a day in highschool when I made a picture of a starving child with a buzzard behind him and gave them thought bubbles, the child had a thought of a big Mac and the buzzard had a thought of the child on a plate. Then I became extremely physically ill and realized I was completely naked. Not in the flesh but in the spirit, I was blind Naked and ashamed just as it says in the scriptures. When you are naked every inner thought and every desire becomes visible and it is scary when you want to hide these things from people and you have no control over it. I can't explain Jesus' form with a tongue but the best I can describe him as is SPOTLESS No doubt why they call him the Spotless lamb sometimes in scriptures. That is why I was ashamed of being naked in the spirit, because he was present in the spirit and the spirit was present in him. If you have ever had someone pick on one of your faults or wrongdoings and you feel tempted to point out something wrong they did to shut them up DO NOT think you can do this with Jesus because he is spotless. He was perfect in his thoughts and completely pure. In the spirit I also saw countless starving children like the one I made into a cartoon, but not like a fleshly form, MAN THIS IS HARD TO DESCRIBE! but I could see how they suffered, many were orphans and all of them had died in ways I cannot relate to anything in my life. Lack of water, poisoned by food, starved, diahrea from poisoned water, they had died in the worst ways and the scariest part was that they were looking at me in horror. I didn't know why but I turned (again hard to describe) into myself and saw what made them horrified of me. It was my nakedness, I could see myself complaining for lack of air conditioning, we had hot dogs but no buns, I want a 50 inch screen TV complaining complaining complaining. That was all I saw when I went into the spirit when I genuinely prayed and I did not come out the same. When I left the spirit all of my things turned to ash right in front of me. I felt as if I was going to go insane being surrounded by such earthly luxury. A million thoughts came racing through my head at once and I couldn't stop screaming to God for help and as I did more help came. This is the part that led me to this website. In high school I didn't get laid at all. My friends would give me shit about it all the time, but I never really knew why it was such a big deal. Then it finally got to me so I picked a girl and decided I was going to take her out and use her. She was a new girl to our school so it would be easy. We really didn't relate at all but she seemed very needy, like nobody around her really took her in so she needed somebody to love. I picked this up early and it bugged me while we dated because in the back of my mind I knew what I was doing. This girl told me stories of how she had been used in the past and she told me she had been raped when she was twelve. The time came when we were alone in her moms apartment and she knew exactly what I wanted and she was going to give it to me. I looked into her eyes and I couldn't keep it up. I looked into myself and I couldn't find a difference between myself and the man who raped her when she was twelve. This girl wanted somebody to love her and care for her and she had all these things happen to her and here I was doing the exact same thing that man did. I was to ashamed and I had to brake it off but because I was ashamed I didn't tell her why. She was very very broken up about it and I was going insane because I couldn't tell her why. This was about 7 months before I genuinely prayed and THANK YOU GOD I was able to find her on facebook and actually admit and apologize to her for what I had done. I still have a scar on my soul, it isn't like here forgiving me allowed me to forget about what i did but it was a relief to let her know that she deserves someone to love her the right way. She also told me that she had been going to church a lot and I'll bet she was praying for me because she probably knew who I was the whole time but wanted somebody to love so bad she looked past my stupidity. Which brings me to this page I was looking at porn a while ago and typed in Nadia Styles and came up on her testimony video and was stopped dead in my tracks and I was cought yet again, but thanks to her testimony I can begin healing.

*Hello to all. This is going to be hard for me at first-but-with God ALL things are possible. I am an Ex-Porn Star, Escort, Adult Entertainer & Adult Model. I have worked all-over the United States Of America. However; I gave my life to Jesus many years ago, tho I have backslidden way too many times to count, I have always come back to Him. I guess that you could say that I am a Historical prodigal daughter of his. Anyways; hearing Shelley's television appearance on Daystar (while I was living down in Houston,Texas)-had a huge impact on me. Yes; The Lord is working thru her and even me, in fact alot more of us than any can imagine. The details of my Testimony I will be including at a later time, only because I have to find a way to word it right and it will be exposing alot of people,places,areas,etc. .

Thank you for providing another resource to help people like myself that has been addicted to pornography and those who have worked in this industry. Many churches want to pretend this does not happen and no one wants to think that pastors above all people would be involved in this sin. This sin preys on all people and one out of every three ministers or church workers have viewed pornography or is addicted in some way to it.
I thank you for sharing the testimony of those who have worked in the industry. Because this plainly shows that by just viewing and watching these women or men perform we are adding to their misery. Lord I pray that you would help every child, for we are all of your children escape from the grips of pornography both workers and viewers. Draw them close to you for your glory and honor. Thank you for giving us resources to fight the grips of pornography and I have become an antipornography advocate.

Dear Friends,
I am not here to judge you at all. I am a pastor that has dealt with pornography addiction myself. It brings me to tears to know how my addiction has hurt people just like yourselves. If you want a minister to talk to or have questions I am willing to help. My email is pastor.james.kelly@gmail.com If I do not have the answers for you I will get them for you. I may have to do research but I am willing to do this. I know Jesus is the only way we can overcome the addictions of this industry.
I feel relieved that God is working in my life and I want to help others just as God has helped me. I just want to help encourage you and strengthen you in the Lord. To be honest with you without the Lord's help none of us would escape. I am not talking about a religion. I am talking about a personal walk with Christ and I am willing to donate my time to help others. I will not ask for any personal information. If anyone does contact me it will be done without giving out any personal information. Everything would be confidential but I have a huge resource available to us that can help us find the answers we are seeking. I understand because I have been addicted to this in my past as well. Something I am not proud of.

Dear Shelley,
Thank you for providing a place where I could come to get help. I am a pastor that have struggled with this for many years. I no longer view pornographyy. God is freeing me from this addiction. I am wanting to help others overcome this addiction as well. I am truly sorry for what my addiction has caused others. It is good to see how damaging this industry is and I am angry. I am angry at the lives that were taken because of addiction, and the porn industry. I am angry at the number of marriages this has destroyed. I am angry at the innocence that was taken from both men and women. I am happy to see so many people see the truth of what this industry has done to our society. Thank you again for providing this place.

If I would not have listened to the powerful testimony that Shelley did at a church in Atlanta and presented it on YouTube, I would not have taken the steps I did to break away completely from the world of destruction I was in. It is incredible to speak out like that and today, I want to do the same. Bless you Shelley!

Due to technical problems I have to change my email. My new email is rev.jameskelly@rocketmail.com, or you can reach me at missionary.pastor@yahoo.com

I am a pastor who have struggled with the battle of pornography. I have started a program for pornography addiction at Settingthecaptivesfree.com I am completing the program so that I can become a mentor. I do not have all of the answers. I am saved only by the grace of God. However, if you are struggling with this addiction; sign up at settingthecaptivesfree.com I will be glad to be a mentor for you. Besides I would love to have a mentor too. There is hope for pornography addiction. We cannot blame the sex stars for our addiction. Our addiction has kept them working. If we would stop buying the junk; then there will be no demand for it and the industry would be bankrupt.

I also want to add that child pornography is bigger than adult industry and it is being intertwined with the adult websites. Pornography addiction hurts others. It is an evil addiction that just does not hurt us but hurts others as well.

The war of addiction begins in our mind. The Apostle Paul exhorts us to "renew our minds" with the Holy Word of God. It is sin that is at war with our flesh.
As a former addict myself, I can relate to what you are going through. I,too, battle the images that are left in my mind. That is why it is so very impotant to fill your mind with the good things that God has for us and to remember that  no matter what, God still loves you!

 I am a student at Mississippi State University and my major is Psychology but for along time I did not know what I wanted to do with Psychology. I was also a porn and masturbation addict and I claimed to be a Christian. I went to church only because I felt I had to, but I did not listen to what the preacher said and I was very closed-minded and distant from my brothers and sisters in Christ. I would be an arrogant jerk to the people who cared for me, I was selfish, rude, and very unchristlike. Deep down I new and tried to deny the fact that I was ashamed of my self. I didn't even know how to treat women right. Then one day I came across the Pink Cross Foundation's website and saw the wrong I was doing. I saw that I was a monster and I was contributing to inequality, sexism, and the dehumanization of women. I was doing exactly what the devil wanted me to do. I had shut out the light, love, grace, and wisdom of God. I realized that I was breaking many of Gods laws and I needed to repent. So I recited the Sinner's prayer and asked God for forgiveness and he took me back. He gave me a new life. Now my life is centered around Jesus. Now I have compassion for others. Now I know how to treat a girl right and I beleive I could be good boyfriend material. I now listen to my preachers and I even take notes. I open my Bible every day and I'm in alot of Bible study growth groups. I talk to God every day and I feel great about. I feel so alive about my faith and free to do Gods works, spread the Gospel, help others, and be a living sacrifice. I am alive and well and I have God to thank. Thank you Shelley Lubben and everyone else at the Pink Cross Foundation you all have greatly helped me find God and you all Inspired me to use the degree that I will achieve and work in the ministry as a Christian Counselor. Thank you for if it hadn't been for you I would still be lost.