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The past two months have been nothing short of a nonstop kick to the porn industry’s ass! Just look at all God has done in only two months:

• August 14 – The Lubbens fly across the country to Washington DC where Shelley tours the nation’s capitol and meets with Concerned Women For America to discuss strategies for pulling down the porn industry. Thank you CWA for taking time out to meet with Shelley!   

• August 15 – The very next day, the Lubben family drives upstate to where Shelley & Garrett’s oldest daughter, Tiffany, gets married to wonderful guy named Shane! Congratulations Tiffany and Shane! We love you!

• August 20 – Pink Cross Foundation joins AIDS Healthcare Foundation in LA at a press conference where ex-porn stars Shelley Lubben & Jan Meza speak against the illegally operating porn industry and file official complaints against the porn industry with Cal Osha. See media coverage here.

The outrageous response from the LA Public Health Department? “Plainly, the public need here is minimal.

At the press conference, Shelley also challenges the porn industry to a public debate.

• September 1 – In response to the LA Public Health Department’s inhumane stance on the destruction of human lives, Shelley testifies in court five days later.

After hearing her testimony, Supervisor Zev Yaroslavsky acknowledges “We’ve asked the department of public health and I believe we’ll have a report on this subject in the next two weeks or less. But my latest information is that we’ve asked for that report for some time and they are preparing it. And if there’s something we can do, we will… It’s very complicated when you’re talking about this particular industry and the way they operate, but if there’s something we can do, we’re going to find a way to do it. This is a legitimate issue…”

• September 11, 12, 13 – Shelley speaks at the 7th annual Preventing Abuse Conference, an event in Los Angeles gathering passionate, hard-hitting anti-sex trafficking activists from around the world to fight human trafficking. Thank you Tony Nassif of Cedar Foundation for putting this amazing conference together where people from all over the world are equipped to fight human trafficking! April, another former porn star and survivor, joins Shelley and Garrett at the conference. Thanks for helping, April!

• September 14 – Straight from the conference, Shelley goes to LA City Hall where she publicly testifies before LA City Council Members about the hazardous and illegally operating porn industry. Shelley’s testimony ultimately leads to a private meeting with LA City Council Member.

• September 17 – Supervisor Zev Yaroslavsky is a man of his word. Shelley receives a phone call from his office and a copy of the LA Public Health Report revealing THOUSANDS of STDs and multiple cases of HIV in the adult industry. Read that report here.

• September 21 – One week later, Shelley has a private meeting at LA City Hall regarding irrefutable evidence against the porn industry. People in power are shocked by what actually goes on in this illegally operating industry. Shelley is deeply grateful to Los Angeles government for caring!

• September 25, 26, 27 – Only four days later, Pink Cross team flies across the country and hits the EXXXOTICA NY porn convention. While there, Shelley is interviewed by CNN, Pink Cross is featured in a short film by Ledger Live, two men decide not to enter the porn industry after talking to Heather, the team educates porn addicts on STDs and porn performers on their health and safety rights, porn stars are given lots of love and pink bags filled with goodies, Jan and Shelley put on a comedy show (coming soon on video), Shelley and Mel stay up until 3:30 am ministering to a top Vivid contract girl (you are so precious to us, sweetie!), and then sneak into a porn pot party afterwards to reach out out to women and men in the adult industry.

Shelley seeks out Ron Jeremy at 4 am to talk to him about the terrible condition of the Vivid contract girl to SEE IF HE CARES since he is supposedly her friend and when he doesn't, Shelley challenges Ron Jeremy to a debate who quickly answers, "I will destroy you", only to later change his tune and suggest Nina Hartley instead.

Note: Shelley is used to going to bed at 8:30 pm every night so these late night porn parties are very painful for her. It would definitely take a lot of drugs to keep this lifestyle up, especially for OLDER porn actors.
Hint hint.

• October 2, 3, 4 – The very next weekend, Pink Cross hits AdultCon, ANOTHER porn convention in the city of Los Angeles. Back to back conventions, you ask? That’s right. Pink Cross will stop at nothing to reach out to porn stars, porn addicts and expose the truth about porn.

The team again goes all out to educate porn fans and adult workers on the truth behind the lie of porn offering love and hope at the same time, Shelley is interviewed by ABC on the convention floor, prays healing over porn stars and porn addicts, and interrupts an interview between Lisa Ling, special correspondent for the Oprah Winfrey Show, and Steve Hirsch, CEO of Vivid Entertainment, the world’s largest porn company, in which she challenges Steve to a public debate.

Forbes.com deems Steve Hirsh the "Porn King" but is Steve Hirsch as powerful and credible as the world perceives? We’ll let you decide. Check out part 1and part 2 in these hilarious videos of Shelley and Steve at AdultCon. 

A very special thank you to Mel, Heather, Jan, Carrie, Ryan and Scott for your sacrifice to travel across country, work long hours and reach out to women and men in the porn industry as well as those struggling with porn. You worked under great pressures, you loved when love wasn't always returned and you labored for the Kingdom of God in a very dark place where MOST don't dare to go. May the Lord bless every single one of you for giving your best to Him! I also want to recognize all the rest of the wonderful members of Pink Cross who work behind the scenes and make Pink Cross even possible! Thank you to my VERY understanding husband Garrett, my daughters Teresa and Abigail, Roger, Creative Insite, Tekeme Studios and the Pink Cross Mods!

More special thanks to all of those who supported us to do this amazing work of God. Without you, it wouldn’t have been possible! You are making a huge difference in the lives of those trapped in porn, those struggling with porn and our nation! We humbly ask you to please give financially so we can continue this powerful work at www.thepinkcross.org.
We can't do it without you!

Shelley leaves you with these historical and prophetic words from one of her favorite mentors:

“This hour in history needs a dedicated circle of transformed nonconformists. The saving of our world from pending doom will come not from the actions of a conforming majority but from the creative maladjustment of a transformed minority.” – Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

Chris Hedges, Best-selling Author, Writes About Pink Cross!
(Book picture) Chris Hedges, best-selling author and Pulitzer prize–winner, writes about Pink Cross and the truth about pornography in his newest book Empire of Illusion: The End of Literacy and the Triumph of Spectacle. Chris Hedges begins chapter 2 of his new powerful book with the words, “The Pink Cross”. I about flipped when I read it. I had no idea Chris wrote a whole chapter dedicated to the truth about pornography, Pink Cross and the research and hard work I have dedicated my life to for five years.

Talk about rewarding!!!! I cried. God is so faithful!

Not only does he write about Pink Cross and former porn actresses we have helped but he uses Chapter 2 as his excerpt to promote his book. Check out this article on the National Post at http://www.nationalpost.com/story.html?id=2073591

THANK YOU CHRIS FOR BELIEVING IN PINK CROSS FOUNDATION! IT’S ABOUT TIME SOMEONE SEE OUR HARD WORK AND PROMOTE OUR CAUSE! IT’S ABOUT TIME SOMEONE SPEAK THE ABSOLUTE AND UNABASHED TRUTH ABOUT PORNOGRAPHY. IT TOOK GUTS. BIG GUTS!

In Chapter 2, Author Chris Hedges explores the physical and psychological damage that the pornography industry wreaks on the women who pass through it and quotes Shelley Lubben, Jan Meza and Patrice Roldan, former porn actresses as well as Scott Smith, former porn addict.

He also quotes porn stars, porn industry leaders, Dr. Sharon Mitchell who runs AIM and others. It is the MOST eye-opening chapter I have ever read on pornography and has put an even BIGGER flame within me to fight against pornography and help those deceived by this filthy and abusive industry!

Porn IS coming down. God has many prophets working for him. He hears America’s cry for help. Although Chris’s book at times makes you feel the situation in America is hopeless, this is where I feel my call is to give people HOPE. And not only that, but to inspire you to TRUST IN GOD, like our currency says!

If God can save me, if God can save porn stars and porn addicts, He can save America!

And I will prove to the porn industry, to America and the whole world that Jesus Christ, the Son of the Living God, IS THAT HOPE!
Watch me this next year. God has empowered me greater to inspire the world to want to know Christ and our Father, Jehovah our God!
And God will use a foolish thing to do it!

Get Chris’s book. Read the truth about America and the reality we are in great decline and living lives of self-delusion. Then get on your knees and pray ask God what He would have YOU do to stand up against this satanic attack on our nation, the nation that proclaims and sends out the Gospel of Jesus Christ more than any other nation.

DO SOMETHING. DO NOT IGNORE THE DEVIL’S SCHEMES. AS A CHRISTIAN YOU WILL BE ACCOUNTABLE FOR IT BEFORE GOD!

To learn the truth about pornography, read over my entire site and visit the links page. To learn the amazing truth of Jesus Christ, watch my videos of how Jesus Christ saved me and other porn stars and visit www.bible.org, www.desiringgod.org.

God is still ALIVE in AMERICA!!

My work name was Genevieve and I want to tell you that the porn industry is not glamorous at all. Although on the surface it may appear to be fun and enjoyable, it really doesn’t compare to what lies beneath the surface.

I started in porn in 2009 when I was only twenty years old.

I loved and craved attention. I always believed that I was porn material because of how much attention I would get and how much love I would feel from it. My mother and father divorced five years ago and because of the emptiness I had felt for so long, I was desperate for love.

I remember browsing through ads on Craigslist when I approached one that attracted me. It was an ad that was for Latina women and it said that they needed pretty, slender, curvy girls to make fast and easy money. I was astonished because I needed the money to pay for school and clothes and I was going to get the attention I always loved and wanted.

I emailed the agents and believe it or not, they replied that same day. I was pretty excited to get to be a part of something that I wanted to do when they called me and told me to meet them that same day.

We went to a hotel and they started taking naked pictures of me so they could send them to two major companies in Florida. The next day, I went to the company and they also took naked pictures of me.

My First Shoot

At the shoot, I was nervous and scared. I never did anything on camera before and I was thinking was how it would feel to actually do something that the whole world was going to see. So to brush off my anxiety, I drank extra fluids and was given some vodka to lower my inhibitions.

I waited desperately to start my video, make the money, and leave. But not only did starting the video take time, making it was also very painful and time consuming. At the time, I thought that porn was fast and easy. But they wanted to take so many pictures. So not only did the pictures take time, but the lighting and sex positions needed to be perfect.

My experience was very bad and I didn’t enjoy it at all when they started filming. I was so surprised because when I watched porn, it didn't seem like it would be so hard to have sex on camera.

I didn’t do the sexual positions right and to conclude the experience, I had bodily fluids all over my face that had to stay on my face for ten minutes. The abuse and degradation was rough. I sweated and was in deep pain. On top of the horrifying experience, my whole body ached, and I was irritable the whole day. The director didn't really care how I felt; he only wanted to finish the video.

I thought my agents were there for me, but in actuality, they didn’t care about me at all.

After I said I wasn’t going to do anything anymore, they began to threaten me and make me feel like I was just a money making machine. Every time I made a video they would get 15% of my money.

It’s a terrible business. Women are used solely as sex objects and nothing more. The actresses are treated like dollar bills and there is no compassion and no comfort provided.

All I know is that porn is not what people think.

Hope In the Face of Hopelessness

The only hope I ever got from this devastating time was through the Pink Cross. Honestly, if it weren't for Pink Cross, I would be dead.

Shelley Lubben has truly been my inspiration and I hope that I become like her one day. She is very personalized with the sex workers rather than passive or aloof like many people who have organizations. She not only gave me advice, but also helped me get closer to God. She gave me a gift bag filled with lipstick, a book about God, and a signature letter telling me how special I am and how she was happy about how courageous I had been.

Before the Pink Cross, I felt like there was really no hope. But when I sought a way out of darkness, I started contemplating ways to help other people who have been or are becoming sex workers. My goal is to help people who have no other confidant, to help them learn that there are other pathways in life, and to see how God can help them find it.

Everything happens for a reason. I know that being in the sex industry was risky for me, but what I got from it was something bigger than life – the motivation to help those who can't get out, or feel like there is no other way out.

Sometimes I regret what I did, but then I think to myself, “When one door closes, another one opens.” I know now that there is something more to live for. Special thanks to the Pink Cross and also God because without his love there is nothing to live for.

- Genevieve

 Many days I sit and wonder at what point I lost control of my life and put it in the hands of porn valley agents. Many girls in porn come from backgrounds of drugged filled homes, have been beat or raped.

My story is a little different. Growing up my household at times was filled with domestic violence but my parents stayed together and it seemed to rarely effect my sister and I. I went to church weekly, involved in beauty pageants, Cheerleading, dance , girl scouts and had all the material things a young girl could ask for. That soon all changed when my mom decided to leave our dad and our household income changed for the worst. There was a time when we lived with different family members, would be low on food and even got kicked out of our apartment.

The winter of 2004 due to money issues we lost our condo and were forced to live in a house that was filled with drugs and crime. I was dating a great guy at the time and his house became my safe heaven but that relationship soon ended. My sister and I moved and I became a hooters girl but still wasn't making enough money for rent and school so I start stripping but only for a few weeks.

Looking in the news paper I saw an ad seeking swim suit models and I decided to go in for a test shoot and the next day the agent called and said he had a shoot for me which would pay $600 and all I had to do was go topless. So, I did. After that came solo work and eventually BG (boy-girl) scenes. I hated this guy and how dirty I felt when he touched me. He would book me at least once a week and I needed the money so I sucked my pride up and ignored the wrong I was doing. Needing more money to be on my own I posted photos on sexyjobs.com not knowing this would be the biggest mistake of my life.

The following morning my phone was blowing up with offers. I did my first scene not knowing anything and started flying across the map each week, booked everyday and made a nice sum of money. I soon started missing class, quit cheer and knowing that I hated what I was doing I kept shooting only looking at the money.

I would cry on the set and scrub my skin so hard after scenes because I felt dirty and just hated myself and how I was being treated. I couldn't sleep at night and began taking up to twenty pills a week! While in porn I had money stolen from me from the agent I had. I did scenes for cheap rates and was told that if I canceled a scene I would have to pay a kill fee so at times I was forced to do stuff I didn't want to do.

The first time I did a swallowing scene and facial I was forced. They waited to the very end to tell me. It was only my second time doing porn.

My worst day was when I was forced to use a sponge to do a scene because it was already booked and my monthly came early I had never did anything like this. The sponge was pushed so far and got stuck that I had to be taken to the hospital I had caught a infection and they had to open me up to remove the sponge. I wasn't able to work for a few weeks and the agent stole two of my checks to replace the money he didn't get from me leaving me broke and without food. I was threatened by other girls that if I didn't do the parties the agent set up I would stopped being booked, and would have to find a place to live.

The worst mistake I made was allowing my 18 year old sister to get into porn. She started partying, hanging with the wrong people and did everything I stayed away from. She left porn when she became pregnant with her daughter who is truly a blessing and changed her life for the better. She did a few scenes but I am proud to say she's in college doing great and now porn/drug FREE!! I soon quit porn myself and should have stayed gone…

I went back to school and tried to get control of my life again got back into cheerleading, dating a new guy but deep down was still depressed and needing money again. I turned to private dates because I thought it would be easier then porn but it was all wrong and dirty. I went back to porn and decided to get a female agent hoping things would be better because she said I would have more control over my career.

NONE of this happened and I was booked out, not sleeping, going to club events and my life was a mess again and sleeping pills ruled my life. I was a well known escort making good money but deep down it wasn't me. I didn't own my life anymore. Porn, money and sex did. VERY nasty and untrue rumors started to spread around about me around the same time I also found out I was pregnant and I do blame all the traveling, stress and crazy life style I was living for the loss of my baby. I slumped into an attitude and became very depressed but hid it with material things. I covered my swollen eyes from crying with makeup, smiling on the outside when I really wanted to just end my life.

I recently did my last scene and walked away from it all having nothing. I struggled for awhile with money, having a normal relationship and just finding myself again. Not only did I lose myself but I lost friends and family. I found out in the Spring that I was pregnant and from that moment on I knew I had to fight to keep my life safe from porn, escorting and sex.

My baby is due very soon and though I won't be able to give he/she right now or all the things a newborn needs he/she will have the love of a pure clean mom that he/she can be proud of and look up to. I wake up knowing that my life is changing for the better and although times are hard due to being on bed rest for a high risk pregnancy I have turned down all private work and offers for pregnant porn, I will never go back to that lifestyle.

Yes the money was great but it didn't make up for all the pain and trouble my body has went through. I've decided that all any help and knowledge that I receive from the Pink Cross I will use it someday to help other girls who are also caught up in the porn life style and believe they can’t survive without porn.

Thank you to Shelley and everyone at the Pink Cross who give girls like me hope and a new out look at life. Thank you to any of you who offer to help me and my baby.

Nyesha 

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