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Welcome to the new Pink Cross Foundation web site!
Submitted by Shelley Lubben on Sat, 11/29/2008 - 22:58.
We are so excited to offer you many new and powerful features to help you overcome porn addictions, sex industry abuse, victimization from pornography and more. We are here to love and support you through whatever you are going through.
We invite you to join our free web site and become a member. Everything is free! We want you to be part of our family and join us in recovery where we love, support and pray for one another.
At this site you will find stories of ex porn stars. You will find inspirational videos, powerful articles and help forums and chat rooms where we offer a safe and non-judgmental place you can share your struggles, partner with others in recovery and learn to live a porn-free life!
We really want you to know you were made for greater things than porn. Jesus even said so:
“For you are God’s masterpiece. Created to be made new in Christ Jesus to do good works which God prepared in advanced for you to do”. Ephesians 2:10
You are God's masterpiece and made for something awesome! See you in the forums and chat rooms!
Love,
Shelley
President, Pink Cross Foundation
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Surfrecon and Pink Cross Foundation Partnership
Submitted by Shelley Lubben on Sun, 11/09/2008 - 22:57.
New Partnership Teaches Parents and Community Leaders How to Make Internet Filters Better with Pornography-Detection Tools
Contact: Matthew Yarro, VP, SurfRecon, Inc., 801-705-4234
MEDIA ADVISORY, October 23 /Christian Newswire/ -- SurfRecon, Inc., Shelley Lubben, and the Pink Cross Foundation have partnered to bring the latest Internet-safety software to families and communities struggling with Internet pornography and to raise awareness about the Pink Cross Foundation, which helps individuals trapped in the adult-entertainment industry start a new life.
"We realize that parents are struggling with trying to protect their families from Internet pornography, and filters cannot do the job by themselves--especially when someone in the home has a pornography problem," said Shelley Lubben, Director of the Pink Cross Foundation, "Filters are great, when they work. But I have heard too many scary stories about smart, tech-savvy kids bypassing an Internet filter to access Internet porn.
"We all need to do a better job watching our kids, and SurfRecon is the tool that parents to do just that."
The new internet-safety software the partnership promotes is the SurfRecon pornography-detection tool, which works hand in hand with a filter to offer "protection + detection" (http://www.surfrecon.com/get-help/detect-porn.html) in a home or business.
Besides raising awareness about SurfRecon pornography-detection tools, the partnership also provides much-needed funding for the Pink Cross Foundation by contributing a portion of all purchases of SurfRecon products through the Pink Cross Foundation's website back to the foundation.
"I thought teaming-up with the Shelley Lubben and the Pink Cross Foundation was a great idea, because not only are we working together to help parents protect their families from pornography," said Matthew Yarro, Executive VP for SurfRecon, Inc, "But we are also solving another problem. We are helping individuals, performers and sex workers, leave the adult entertainment industry and start a new life.
"We are proud to be contributing to the Pink Cross Foundation."
What Is a SurfRecon Pornography Detection Tool?
The latest wave in Internet-safety tools is a pornography-detection tool, and SurfRecon is the leader. A pornography-detection tool leverages digital signatures, similar to fingerprints, that uniquely identify a pornographic image or video. SurfRecon currently maintains the largest collection of digital signatures with over 200 million in its database.
The SurfRecon software comes pre-installed on a standard USB thumb drive, which can be used on almost any Windows, Macintosh or Linux computer system. The software is easy to use and allows an individual to quickly and accurately scan a computer for pornographic content. The tool also offers a number of safety tools for individuals reviewing any content found.
About SurfRecon, Inc.
SurfRecon, Inc. is an Orem, Utah-based company that develops cutting-edge digital detection technologies. It's flagship product, SurfRecon, is a pornography-detection tool that is in use by families, businesses and law-enforcement agencies around the world.
About Shelley Lubben
Shelley Lubben is a mother, a missionary to the sex industry, fighter for truth and advocate for sex workers and porn performers who are abused by the adult industry.
Shelley is also a former porn actress fighting tirelessly against the pornography industry, which affects most of the world in a destructive way. Unrelenting in the cause of human rights, Shelley is passionate to educate people all around the world about the abusive and illegally operating porn industry as well as inspire the world to stop viewing pornography and stop contributing to the destruction of men and women who are being abused daily in the pornography industry.
About The Pink Cross Foundation
The Pink Cross Foundation is a compassionate humanitarian outreach dedicated to helping improve the lives of persons struggling with pornography addiction, sex industry abuse, sexual abuse and more. Shelley Lubben, former porn actress and prostitute in the 90's, was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Depressive Disorder, Impulse Control Disorder and substance abuse due to years of trauma from the sex industry. She was prescribed anti-depressants, Lithium, and sleeping pills and recommended counseling for the next twenty years!
After eight years of recovery at the Champion's Center, Shelley conquered the horrible effects of her past and became a Champion in life through the power of Jesus Christ. Ten years later Shelley is on a mission to go back to the sex industry to reach out to porn stars and sex workers with the power and love of Jesus Christ. Shelley is also on a mission to smash the illusion of porn and help people overcome pornography addiction.
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Exotic Erotic Expo Outreach Update!
Submitted by Shelley Lubben on Wed, 11/12/2008 - 13:14.
Pink Cross Foundation boldly reached out at Exotic Erotic Expo in San Francisco to thousands of porn stars, pornographers, married couples, drug dealers, porn "artists", porn fans, S&M folks and even the security guards! We hugged necks, held people in our arms while we prayed for them, met up with some of our friends from past conventions, talked to porn stars, handed out the great news about Jesus and the not so great news about porn…
"Porn is not glamorous and Jesus has something better for You!"
That was our motto for the weekend and we lovingly told as many people as we could whether at the Pink Cross booth or when we ventured out to bring them gifts to their booths. It didn't matter to us if they were a porn star or a porn fan or a naked married couple, we were compelled to show everyone the love of Christ and often prayed for those who wanted it. What an honor to hold a drug dealer in our arms and pray for him. What a privilege to listen to people pour their hearts out while tears rolled down their faces. What a blessing to help porn stars realize they are made for something better than porn. To see God open so many eyes and touch people in such a beautiful way was absolutely amazing. He loves them so much!
Many people told us our love made all the difference in the world. They said in past years cruel protestors showed up outside the convention yelling and condemning them to hell instead of taking the time to speak gently to them and share the truth with them. Many thanked us for being kind and demonstrating to them what true Christianity is. That is so awesome!
We weren't only "hugs" though. We knew it was important to educate people about the truth about pornography and what they contribute to when they view pornography. We also shared with porn stars and girls thinking about doing porn the consequences they will reap from living that kind of lifestyle. Ex porn star Jan and I shared our testimonies and even made a few girls cry. Anastasia below reaches out to a woman caught up in the porn lifestyle.
We shared porn industry statistics which shocked most people. We put up videos of girls who left porn last year who shared their painful experiences in porn and their struggles in recovery. See former porn star Sierra Sinn below in a video sharing the truth about porn and how it affected her life. The hearts of the people were pierced and broken for the women in porn. It's never easy to show videos like that but people need to know the truth.
We believe strongly when people know the truth, the truth will set them free. We believe in lots of hugs, kindness, prayer and a good dose of truth. This fulfills the great commandment to love:
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. (We reached out gently and gave hugs and gifts and took an interest in every person we met. We were patient when they asked questions or wanted to talk about their problems. We looked them in their eyes and really listened.)
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. (We didn't brag about how great we are or act arrogant but instead practiced humility and gentleness and pointed people to Jesus and the truth about porn.)
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking. (We didn't condemn anyone or argue when someone disagreed with us. We simply shared the truth, demonstrated love and if they didn't want to hear what we had to say, we thanked them for listening and offered them a free gift. Our goal was to plants seeds of love and truth.)
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. (We didn't get offended when someone was cruel to us or made fun of us. We just kept smiling and offering love.)
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. (We didn't celebrate their evil behavior but instead we walked humbly among them, didn't judge them, and spread the good news about Jesus and the truth about porn.)
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (We didn't give up. We worked hard to win them over, took an interest in their lives and encouraged them that Jesus has something better for them and after a while some of them trusted us to open up to us.)
Love never fails. (People met Jesus that weekend, were powerfully touched by God's love and some said they would never attend a porn convention again and would stop viewing pornography. Some of the girls stuck in porn have written me asking help from Pink Cross to do something better with their lives. Love never fails.)
To see all of our amazing pictures of what God did at Exotic Erotic Expo please click here. If you would like to help us go to Las Vegas to reach out to porn stars and porn fans with the same love and passion please donate here. We really need your help as conventions are not cheap. We appreciate your support and for believing in what God has called us to do. We couldn't do it without you!
Love,
Shelley Lubben, President
Pink Cross Foundation
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Tamra Toryn Out of Porn!
Submitted by Shelley Lubben on Sun, 11/30/2008 - 09:59.
Ex Porn Star Tamra Toryn
I am VERY excited to announce that another porn star has left porn! Tamra contacted me through Myspace and we immediately connected. She wanted to come out with her story to help educate young girls before they get into porn and suffer major consequences. She also wants those viewing porn to know the truth so they will stop buying into the lie and contributing to women being abused in the industry. She is very outspoken and tells it like it is in an interview with her and I. Talk about two outspoken ex porn stars! Click here to listen to an audio of us talking boldly about the truth behind the porn industry and more!
She boldly writes on her myspace blog:
"Unlike most girls that start their porn careers doing just masturbation, oral or girl/ girl, I went straight for hardcore because I was quote unquote "hardcore" . Attitude check anyone? My scene was shot Gonzo (reality/amateur style) boy/girl, anal, ATM (ass to mouth)- pay $1000. Expenses and flight all paid. Sounded like a dream come true.
I arrive and a man with a sign awaits me in the baggage claim area with an Escalade limo to pick me up. We stop at Denny's to eat and meet with the director. After we meet, he takes me outside to give me a once over look of approval, we finish eating, and drive to the studio.
Nothing prepared me other than a boot camp workout, my xanax prescription for my anxiety disorder since I was nervous as heck, and a low carb diet for a month to dig up the courage to take my clothes off to do things I never thought I would share on film for the world to see. Tons of people walking around, food provided, etc etc. No STD tests were given or shown since the director assured me that since they were using condoms, I wouldn't have to worry. (Yeah right)
2 hours later, naked, medicated, sore, and wet from jumping off a boat to end the scene like they pushed me off the boat like a useless stupid whore, I received $1000 for my "hard work", praised of a "great job" I did and driven to my friend's house (since I didn't want to stay at the production's beach house with weird people on drugs I didn't know) and extended my stay to celebrate my new life as a "porn star".
This is where real life ended and the delusion of temporary existence began."
You can read the rest of her amazing story at www.myspace.com/miss_Tammie_B Her profile is set to private but if you request to be her friend and mention Pink Cross she will approve you. Please be sure to leave her encouraging comments. She says many myspace friends already reached out to her and it REALLY touched her.
Tamra entered the porn industry at age 26 in 2005 and was involved in making very hardcore movies. After being tired of the abuse and catching HPV, a sexually transmitted disease, she left the porn industry in February, 2008 and now works at a tanning salon in Hollywood. Her dream is to go to Cosmetology school so we are going to do our best to help her make that dream come true. Right now she has a need for new clothes so we want to help her with immediate needs first.
If you have a heart to help Tamra rebuild her life, please donate below. We appreciate everyone who cares about these precious women who are trying to rebuild their lives. It's NOT an easy time for Tamra so we thank you for caring. She struggles with many consequences of porn and Pink Cross Foundation wants to be there for her.
Check back for an updated blog about our meeting on Monday. I am driving down to Hollywood to take her out to lunch and shopping for new clothes. I can't wait to spend time with her!
Thank you sincerely for caring about precious women like Tamra. We couldn't do it with your help!
Love, Shelley Lubben
President, Pink Cross Foundation
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UPDATE: Tamra and I went shopping in Los Angeles and had a blast! I was able to buy her a couple really nice outfits and a few other things thanks to those of you who donated. I am so thankful you cared about Tamra and she says a HUGE thank you to all of you!
She can't believe how many people care, especially all the people on myspace encouraging her and loving her. She is so thankful for all of your love and support.
Our day together was filled with talking, shopping, laughing, and sharing our stories with each other. My heart broke for some of the things she has been through that she hasn't even mentioned yet. Obviously the girls who just come out of porn need time to sort things out and aren't ready to disclose every trauma they have been through. But I am really proud of her being so strong this soon!
Tamra is very outgoing and friendly and is surprisingly very optimistic about herself and her future. She loves to encourage and counsel so I told her she should think about going to get a counseling degree. She is such a beautiful encourager with a great attitude. I was really surprised. I don't think she said one negative thing the whole time! For someone who just left porn in February and has been through some major tough times, she is definitely on her way to a very bright future!
Below are more pics of us shopping so again we thank you for supporting Pink Cross so we can continue to reach out to precious women like Tamra!
Please consider helping us to finance Tamra to come and join us at the Las Vegas AVN convention in January as we really would love to have her help us reach out to porn stars and porn fans. We will need about $500 to pay for her flight out as well as her meals and hotel costs.
Thanks for caring!
Shelley and Tamra shopping!
Tamra loves her new clothes!
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Ex Male Porn Star Trent Roe Story
Submitted by Shelley Lubben on Fri, 11/28/2008 - 18:06.
Ex Male Porn StarTrent Roe Story
My name is Ryan and I grew up in the suburbs of Chicago Illinois and I'm 37. I've been a Christian for a little over a year. However, I didn't come to know God until Nov. 2007 when I got the chance to go on the Encounter retreat.
To start with, I have to explain to you that I was the last of 5 children, so my path was already laid out for me by the time I got to high school. As a kid, I had a great family and I loved to play sports. I was in Little League Baseball, I was a Star Wrestler from 3rd grade until my Junior year of High School and everyday after practice I would go snow skiing at the local resort down the street from my house. In the summer, I would go water Skiing or fishing almost everyday and I was also a BMX racer. As you can see, I never had a dull moment and I was pretty popular. The problem was, I was a small kid and I never got much attention from the chicks!
I started smoking pot in 7th grade and it became a daily routine. When you're 13, money isn't easy to come by unless you stole it, and that's what I did. I became a thief and used to rip off hundreds from my step father weekly. I always had a bag and soon after I was selling joints for 2 bucks a piece as a freshman in high school. If I couldn't rip off the my step father, I would team up with my friends at 3 am and go around town walking for miles breaking into cars and stealing Radar Detectors. When the police came to school and called out 50 license plate numbers of cars that had a radar detector and told the owners to come to the auditorium, I freaked out and I realized, they were on to us. Eventually I took the rap for everyone and did a week in a juvy stress camp and paid a hefty fine.
The Porn Industry
I moved to California the following summer. I told my friends that I was going to Cali to "Get Paid To Get Laid"! I wanted to be a Porn Star. It took me 7 years to do it, but like anything, if you put your mind to it, you can do what ever you want!
Most of us think that watching Porn is the worst part of Sin. For the majority of us, it is. For me it's quite different. I was not only watching Porn, I was an Actor in Porn. For two years of my life at the age of 24, I committed what most would say (aside from murder) the worst Sin of all. I got paid to openly have sex with women while others watched and filmed it. I knew that what I was doing was wrong and I also knew the odd's of getting Aid's or some other sexually transmitted disease! The thing is, "I WAS HIGH" and I didn't care about my life or the lives of others!
The odd thing, is that when I tell this story, people tend to ask the most stupid questions. People frequently ask me, "was it fun, did it pay well". If you think that Sin is a good source of income, then you need to recognize "The Holy Spirit" more then you think.
On Thanksgiving in 95'I went to visit my family in Palm Springs. I noticed my step father switching the channel every time I walked in the living room. Curiosity got the better of me and I got up early the next day to check something. I looked at the remote control and I noticed the recall button was worn out, so I pressed it and the cable box switched to the XXX Spice Channel. At the time I had been getting calls from Spice to shoot for them. I totally freaked out and I had to make an immediate decision. I had to get out of Porn or my family would find out "VIA 3rd party". I have 16 nieces and nephews and the last thing I wanted was, for them to see Uncle Ryan in a PORNO! I asked my roommate what to do and he said "either keep doing it or quit and keep selling them Coke and Weed". I quit immediately and kept my contacts for my customers. Besides, I was making 4 times the money! I went from Bad to the Worst. I started selling drugs to people and was ruining hundreds of lives, all for the simple reason that I didn't want my family to find out about my "Porno Past". My family always knew I was doing drugs the whole time so there wasn't much of a surprise there. I was an adult and I wasn't about to let them interfere in my life.
I was sellin' to everyone I could. producers, camera men, Actors and Actresses, Anyone that had Cash. My childhood was o.k. until my parents split up. My mom was married and had 4 kids. She met my dad that had 3 and then they had me. My father was a special effects genius and developed a-lot of what we see in the movies, although we grew up in the Chicago northwest suburbs. He did movies such as the Original "The Fog" and Cheech and Chongs "Up in Smoke". I had a great time growing up and my sisters and brother have been great to me. My father became an Alcoholic and started to abuse my mother and my brother. I only saw it a few times but the image is there and that is what sucks. Actually, it made me a better person and I swore to myself that I would never be that way and I haven't.
As it is when anyone attains a "step father", it sucks. I was 13 and the last thing I wanted was some other man with my mother! I didn't care about girls. All I wanted to do was ride my bike and go PRO! Having a Step father put a damper on my life and my mother didn't really pay much attention to me during those years. I was a wrestler from 3rd grade until I was a junior in high school. I won a-lot and I took first in quite a few tournaments that she was never at. That was disappointing. I would go to practice and didn't want to go home after, so I would have her pick me up and drop me off at the ski hill down the street from our house and I would ski til 10 p.m. every day. The last thing I wanted to do was go home and see my step father.
I got used to it after a while but I soon started getting into trouble and things started to disappear in the house that friends of mine decided to steal. Once a gun got stolen and a box of cash because I opened my mouth. The cops thought I did it because the thief made it look like an inside job. The summer before I had gone sailing with a friend and I left my house key attached to the boat so I wouldn't loose it. I figured it out about 2 years later. I had to take a lie detector test that my step father wanted and I failed it because I was taking cash out of the box for weed. OMG, what a life! A radar detector came up missing and my mom came to school looking for me. The night before I swiped 100 bucks and I had the change from it in my pocket when she came and yanked me out of class. Out in front of the school in front of the deans window, she asked me what happened to the radar detector. I had no clue what the heck she was talking about. She looked down at my pocket and saw a bulge and told me to take what was in my pocket out. It was a wad of Moo la! Busted for somethin' again! I found out who stole the radar detector and kicked his A _ _! I immediately copped to taking the money from my step fathers money clip'(s) but I wasn't about to look like a petty thief. If I was goin' down, I wanted to look smart. She couldn't believe her ears and never told him.
I finally got nailed and took the rap for everyone in town. We had a crew that would go snatchin' radar detectors and bust out windows during the week at 3 am. We would sell them for 100 bucks or trade em' for weed. I had one stashed at a friends house and his mother was a close friend of my mom's. She was actually my Scout Mother. He was a punk and got stuck livin' with his grandma next to his parents house and when his mom searched his room and found my stuff, he pointed the finger at me. She took everything he had and my stuff to the cop shop. My father had a few run in's with Sargent Bush, so he knew my name very well. I got pulled out of class by Jeniffer Becker and she asked me what I did because Sargent Bush was in Mr. Scotts office, the head dean. Mr. Scott and I were friends because my brother grew up with his son and Mr. Scott was also a close friend of my step father from high school. I sat in a room at the police station separated from my mom for 4 hours and denied everything until they tricked me. I went to court and had already admitted to 18 counts. The judge asked me why I was crying at the police station and if I was crying because I was caught. I said yes when I was on the stand and screwed myself! My mom's head hit the table. I was a goner and I took the rap for everyone! I Ain't No Snitch. I ended up going to a stress camp for a week in November in Michigan and we were forced to sleep in tents with snow on the ground. I left at town and moved to California to start over and live with my brother. Then I got some weed and started all over again in the wrong crowd! That's when I found the Porn Industry!
In June of 2007, I was in a relationship and had been off of speed since Jan 4th 2006. My computer crashed and she tried to fix it. Guess what? She found a box cover I was on, and the cat was now out of the bag! The "Porn Star" was discovered by accident 13 years later. She paid for and started downloading my videos. She even said that if I watched them with her that we could work it out and I would be Forgiven.
I'm sorry Gentlemen, but the only one that will allow that is God "The Father", and my Brothers take it from me, if you repent and surrender your lives, you can and will be accepted by Jesus Christ, Our Lord and Savior. I had to do something very important and I had to do it now. I called my mother and I told her what I used to do. Mom was cool about it because it was as she said "My Past"! I had to tell mom before my girlfriend acted out her threats. I was at the verge of death by my own hand and I wanted to end it all, but I knew that somewhere I could get help and not by wasting 20 grand in a rehab. I found that help here at the Encounter through the brothers here that have shown me how powerful God truly is! I am an Ex-Porn Star and I am Alive and Well. I have been sober from Speed for 2 ½ years and now I'm free from weed for over 123 days or 4 month's to the day. Sin is not a contest to see who can die first, because then no one wins except that PUNK satan! Getting away from and being free from Sin is a goal and Jesus paid for all of our Sin's when he took his place upon the cross. Thank you for listening and God Bless you my brothers, for we are all God's Children and we can all go to Heaven!
How I met Shelley Lubben and Pink Cross Foundation
Last year (2007) around November, I was struggling with my past and how I was going to face it. I was on myspace and I was searching for new friends when I stumbled across this, "EX PORN STAR Shelley Lubben speaks out"! I checked out her page and I watched her testimony. I immediately felt the exact pain she went through. I started to get teary eyed and I wanted to add her as my friend and contact her. Being that myspace won't allow us to contact people unless they are our friends, I sent an add request. I was notified that she approved me the next day unlike most of the losers out there that have to analize your page. I sent her an email and explained just how her story lifted me up and that I wanted to join her in the fight against porn! My exact words were, "I Want To Kill Porn 1 Soul At A Time".
She asked me to write a testimony and that took a while. It took some soul searching to look back at what I used to do and not get upset. I prayed on it to Jesus for weeks. I suddenly got the ambition one night to do it and it just poured out like you wouldn't believe. I wrote it in one shot and I was up til 3 a.m.! Funny how the Lord works when you pray for answers, huh? I sent it to her and she asked me if I was ready. I was nervous at first but the Lord told me different. He told me that this is what his plan is for me. What helped the most is that Shelley told me that she really hasn't met any men that have quit the porn scene and were willing to speak out about it.
I am and I will never quit until "I KILL THE PORN INDUSTRY 1 SOUL AT A TIME". This is God's will and he has been really good to Shelley. That fact speaks for itself. God has also been really good to me. He has given me a friend named Shelley Lubben that I can call at 3 or 4 in the morning if I need to talk to someone. She may not answer, but she always returns the call.
Last Christmas I got a call from Shelley asking me for my address. She wanted to help me because I was having a difficult time and I was low on money for food. About 3 days later I got a package in the mail from a foundation named The Pink Cross Foundation. I opened it up wondering what the Pink Cross was and who this was from. It was from Shelley and her husband Garret and the people at Pink Cross. I got a BIBLE and some other books as well as a DVD named Traffic Control. There was also a gift card for the grocery store and Home Depot. I was floored! Absolutely astonished. I couldn't believe that some stranger actually cared about me and my well being. Shelley is "God Sent" and is doing the will of God! We are together in this fight and we are "KILLING PORN 1 SOUL AT A TIME".
Written By:
Ryan Lee Millay
Note from Shelley: Thank you Ryan so much for sharing your story with us. You are very brave and I am so proud of you! Please everyone be kind and leave encouraging comments for Ryan at his myspace.
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